I had been hungry all the years;
my noon had come, to dine;
I, trembling, drew the table near, and touched the curious wine.
‘T was this on tables I had seen,
when turning, hungry, lone,
I looked in windows,for the wealth
I could not hope to own.
I did not know the ample bread,
‘T was so unlike the crumb
The birds and I had often shared
In Nature’s dining-room.
The plenty hurt me, ’twas so new, –
Myself felt ill and odd,
As berry of a mountain bush
Transplanted to the road.
Nor was I hungry; so I found
That hunger was a way
Of persons outside windows,
The entering takes away.
Ââ€˜Hungerâ€™, Emily Dickinson
Full Moon Cancer, Sunday, December 26, 2004 7:06 AM PST
Passing the longest night of the year in the blink of an eye, here we are with the days now slowly increasing in light, so slow that we donâ€™t notice the change. Time slows down, all but stopping. Time moves in cycles, we feel this now, remembering when the summer days were long and when there was hope in our hearts. Where has it gone? Will there be light again? For some of us, this time of year offers space for reflection. The darkness brings comfort and room for renewal, we let it cloak our days like a big woolen cape, dropping our hoods gratefully for the brief moments of sunshine.
Sun in Capricorn is Father Time, chronos and kairos time. Chronos time is the clock time weâ€™ve created to structure our days; this time was a manmade creation–like the railroad transportation system which created the time zones allowing us to organize our time on earth. Kairos time is our circadian rhythm, not just a physiological clock but an organic, moving continuum. Our mind knows chronos time, but our body/mind knows kairos time. This inner knowing tells us what stage of the continuum weâ€™re in right now. Are we beginning, synthesizing, gathering, sustaining, harvesting, ending, dissolving? Sun in Capricorn looks through these evaluatory dark glasses, only picking up the light and dark, the essential view. We arrive at the end of the tunnel of winter with a clearer understanding of where weâ€™ve come from, who we are now and where weâ€™re going.
Like old Ebenezer Scrooge, uncompromising Capricorn energy will overlook nuance and rosy sunsets for outcome, product, the bottom line. This may be a necessary point of view; we need the stark landscape to re-inspire our new-year dreams. We need to face down our demons of the past and hopes for the future in the dead of night. Melancholy, sadness and reflection on days of yore lend themselves nicely to this process. Everything seems to have an air of finality about it; our dreams may feel terribly earthbound with restrictions and limitations. Know itâ€™s natural to feel this way right now.
Christmas materialism has just scratched at our door like a hungry cat. The mewing would have you think this cat hasnâ€™t eaten in years. The mewing cat is calling out the contrast of what weâ€™ve yet to achieve against all we have. This hard reality can be disheartening; but Capricorn teaches that the exact place our heart hardens, there exists the fatal flaw of our hopes and dreams. Is there a hard place in your heart, the place where that bitter pill you keep swallowing becomes jagged edged, wounding the soft, beating flesh? Your heart is listening to that story.
The challenge of Capricorn is to keep tender, to keep climbing the mountain, long view in sight while honestly assessing what is and is not working.
Full moon in Cancer is a call to balance, to not neglect the heart for the â€˜reality bitesâ€™ soundtrack. What nurtures and sustains the heart on this long journey through the dead of winter? It is nourishing to have a good home, supportive and nurturing relationship, family, rooted ness, tradition. It is nourishing to have your basic emotional and physical needs met.
The heart needs the practicality of Capricorn, the realism of Capricorn needs the hearth-flame, a rooted ness of heart. This is the inner knowing that we all truly live- in the deepest sense of the word, in the heart. No matter what we build in the world, the heart is the home, the place where we know how to allow our self to fearlessly release into the spring, summer, autumn, fall of life. A well-nourished heart is life-support at all the right moments. An injured heart falters and we end up hungry. When we â€˜keep the home fires burningâ€™ we give ourselves and others a sense of place, belonging and interconnection.
This full moon, appreciate the importance of your heart needs. The fulfillment of these basic needs animates life. Itâ€™s the difference between having a house or making a home in the world.
12/26 Full Moon day Saturn still opposes Chiron, exact. All year weâ€™ve had the opportunity to heal relationship wounds and end those not working. Separation and reconciliation are themes. If this sounds familiar, by now you will know on which side of the fence you stand. If your story grew a shell around your heart, it may be thin and fragile as an eggshell but strong enough to keep both the bogeyman and the dream away. Put the wind back under your sails with a trio of optimism; Mercury, Venus and Mars in Sagittarius give us all the energy to push on. Like buoys in the sea of life, we are tossed about but always stay above water.
Our mental outlook is upbeat and facing-future and sextiling Neptune, idealistic and seduced into sugar plum fantasies. Mercury travels close to Venus, the people we have around us mirror our own inner attitude right nowâ€”they are encouraging and enthusiastic, warming our hearts despite the winter chill. Mars has just entered Sagittarius, leaving powerhouse Scorpio where our energy had a lot of focused staying power and we were up to the task. For the next 6 weeks in Sag, physical energy is easily dispersed among many things, with the potential for overextension. If you have the tendency, take care not to over commit.
12/27 Moon in Cancer, Venus sextile Neptune and weâ€™re lost in a daydream of pleasure. Sit by the fire and meditate on all the Christmas gifts youâ€™ve accumulated. 12/28 Mercury and Venus join exactly on a Moon in Leo day.
Friends are gabby and dramatic; we talk about travel, journeying and making future plans. The planet of information gathering joins the planet of what makes-me-happy in the sign of hopes and visions makes this an ideal day for gathering your resolutions â€˜round.
12/29-12/30 Itâ€™s all in the game of love. Venus and Jupiter make beautiful music together in a mutual reception. Venus loves Jupiter and Jupiter loves Venus to be sure. Relationships experience a cosmic bear hug and weâ€™re in love again. In the pinball game of love/life, you have just been given 50,000 extra points to spend as you please. This gamey Venus is ready to take a chance, and Jupiter is happy to oblige. How will you spend your windfall? Do not miss out on this aspect! Perform some planetary magic by putting yourself in a position where the â€˜pleasure oddsâ€™ are in your favor.
With Jupiter, is there a place you want to go, a dream you want to live out, right now? Jupiter is the planet of travel, teachers and higher learning: long voyages of the mind and body are favored. Spiritual pilgrimages & journeys with heart invigorate and inspire. Mercury sextiles Jupiter making 12/30 It’s a good day for travel and big picture thinking– like marketing.
One major cautionary note for this day and itâ€™s a biggie. Mars squares Uranus, always a volatile and dangerous pair. Mars newly in Sag may be overeager and carelessâ€”this is a problem for Mars because among others he rules cars, sharp instruments, firearms. Uranus always means sudden changes of events and disruption. Unfortunately, the potential for violence and destruction is energetically supported. If youâ€™re traveling by car this day, you cannot be too careful. This aspect is exact in the late evening (PST); try to get where youâ€™re going by then.
Clear skies for 12/31 New Yearâ€™s Eve. Sober moon in Virgo and festivities may be atypically restrained, making a quiet eve more attractive. Moon trine Sun in earth signs make us more concerned about comfort and physical pleasure than the get-up and go. Virgo moon doesnâ€™t like excess or overindulgence so beware of too much drink; the body will feel the consequences. Virgo energy continues through 1/01. Inward and reflective, we stand at the threshold of another year, seeing both potential and potential faults. In the evening, Moon sextiles Saturn and we find the commitment to do what it takes.
1/02-1/03 last quarter square, Moon in Libra. Venus and Pluto conjunct, Sun inconjunct Neptune. A now pensive Venus has the potential for bringing up relationship issues. If a new perspective or change in mind comes up, donâ€™t be surprisedâ€”itâ€™s been in the works. Heavy handed, yes, but brutally honest. Sun inconjuncts Neptune asking for dissolution of a stubborn stance, perfectly timed for this Venus who demands sacrifice.
1/04 Moon in Scorpio, Mercury on Pluto and itâ€™s more of the same. Thanks to retrograde Mercury, this first took place 11/19, 12/07 and now finally 1/04. This is the mind-purge. Obsessions, grudges, resentmentsâ€”all the ugly and destructive thoughts you hold onto hold you back. Whoâ€™s in control here?
The mental attitude is dark and tenacious. This final pass means itâ€™s finally time to let go. Things wonâ€™t move forward without dropping the baggage. Look to the last New Moonâ€™s newsletter for guidance. Still in effect, 1/05 be sensitive to others as Venus is quincunxed by Saturn. Relationships require compromise, feel the consequences for better or worse.
1/06 Moon finally moves into Sagittarius in the evening, moods lighten up a little and we can begin to unwind. 1/07 Sun in Capricorn square Jupiter in Libra. This may be the pressure release weâ€™ve been searching for, but we may want more than we can actually handle or afford. An authority figure or the reality police have the potential to spoil your fun. Appease the planetary gods by asking for a side of â€˜a little bit lessâ€™ with your order of â€˜moreâ€™.
1/09 Venus and Mercury move into Capricorn, Moon in Capricorn. Venus in Capricorn is the ultimate millionaireâ€™s wife- she looks for status and security in relationship, and so do we during the tour de Capricorn till 2/02. Traditionally, Venus is not so happy in Capricorn. On her own, Venus is sociable, sharing and flirtatious. In Capricorn she doesnâ€™t socialize, she networks; when she shares she is making a mental tally of give and take; she doesnâ€™t flirt, she is sizing you up for marriage material. Are you stable, successful, financially established? We may find ourselves and others concerned with social acceptance, status and prestige. Yes, if we can hold it in our hand and in front of others, it has weight and worth.
Mercury is right there beside her, so we have agreement between the head and our desires. If only there was a Howard Hughes for every girl.
Come, come, whoever you are, this caravan has no despair. Even though you have broken your vows perhaps ten thousand times
Still, come again, come, whoever you are, Whoever you are, come. Wanderer, worshipper, lover of leaving, come!
New Moon Sagittarius, Saturday, December 11, 2004 5:29 PM PST
A second lunation for Sagittarius, another opportunity to cultivate the seeker. The full moon illumined the inkling of a seed something. We read the lay of the land with its many paths and directions. The river whispered your name, the bending tree told you which direction to best follow your life destination. Your vision was broad, and the particulars needed focus-,it was just beginning. The full moon promised new roads in the backyard of our familiar. Hopefully we discovered some. Sagittarius wants us to reach further, to envision outlandish possibility. This is the searcher, seeker, preacher, teacher, poet-philosopher, mystic & magician in you. Looking for the purpose in all things, this is where we weave context and meaning. To the mystics, the mundane of ordinary life events are like puzzle pieces falling into a larger cosmic web. This new moon wants us to drop the baggage off on the way.
The timing of this lunation seems especially relevant to the new paradigms weâ€™re now living. There have been big shifts this fall; many people have been catapulted into new realities. These changes were subtly announced with elegant planetary patterns, long awaited breakthroughs happened almost seamlessly, like a knife through butter. All your surrender, work, your patient waiting for life, finally softened and allowed room for new. If you showed up to the moment, the effects produced profound results: healings, endings & beginnings. The Divine blew gentle kisses into your ear. For Sagittarius, life is magic, the universe pulsing with color and new experience. The visionary in us lives for expansion. As we get ready to expand, there is clean up work.
The thinker, Mercury the mind, has been stressed. Mercury is moving backwards and has for the 2nd time joined with Pluto, the planet of â€˜all that you canâ€™t leave behindâ€™. You may find yourself circling in loops of emotional memory; jealousy, resentment, bitterness, fear, desireâ€¦name your injury, the restless and fixed energy of the mind knows the difference between where you want to be and where you are. The mind is thinking with your gut, and your gut has a list of injuries longer than Santaâ€™s. A repeating aspect, you mayâ€™ve reached your edge more than once through the past month; this is the phone call you avoid, the phone ringing off the hook. This is the caller asking for a past due invoice. What is it you need to finally stop thinking or believing? You hunger for change and expansion like the roaming mystic/gypsy/poet traveler you are. The urge to expand is countered by an initial contraction. A priori to the new, we must be willing to get deep into the nitty- gritty of our own beliefs, the root cellar of mind.
Imagine a deep forest, dark and still. The landscape pulses waves of dense black-green. You find your story beyond the stillness, where redwood trees begin to look human. Did they just speak & move? Senses so alive, you can taste the rich and thick smells, primordial, earthy. Smell something rotten and fresh alive. This is the mind, fertile and powerful. The mind knows the stories of humanity since the beginning of time. A million voices: tell, untell, remember, forget, relive, release. Your story holds a very powerful connection to the timeless and your very personal beliefs.
Leaning into our personal story may take the rest of our lives. But here we are in the sign of the visionary, at the edge of deep inner space. With Pluto, Venus and Mars in Scorpio, all that we canâ€™t leave behind is our hidden richness, our wealth of energy. Itâ€™s all bound up down there like a magical kundalini charging our creativity and desires with raw funky stuff.
Let it bubble up. Investigate the story. Chances are, much has changed since the song first began. Have you noticed? Life has given you so much, even through the darkness of injury and pain. Pay in kind by relinquishing a little piece of the woundedness. With a gentle touch in the right spot, universes shift, realities folding like pudding batter. Find a small way to give up the old story, let obsession be replaced by a new expansionary expression.
To bridge the inner world to the outer- this isnâ€™t a New Moon youâ€™ll want to do alone, or spend doing the same old thing. Sagittarius lives for the open roadâ€”take a day trip! Visit someplace special to you, a teacher or church you havenâ€™t been in awhile. Experiment with new perspectives, dialogue. Take in points of view on the outside as food for growth.
Venus in Scorpio has just left a sextile to Chiron (12/10) and applies a trine to Saturn on Monday. This is soft energy for intense times. Kindness in relationship proves healing. The urge to prematurely act out is countered by awareness of the others emotional, physical limits. Much has been learned through Venusâ€™ tour with Mars the past few weeks; the inner and outer tantrums were just as passionate as the sex. After all the hiss and spit, this is the place where we take what weâ€™ve learned and apply with care.
12/12 Mercury sextile Jupiter, Moon in Capricorn. Take your trip this day, talk to friends, your mind is opened and receptive to information. Mercury is sitting between Jupiter and Neptune for some creative inspiration. The imagination may be rich right now and the perceptual field dense with possibility. Use fantasy, travel, movies, art to give you a lift. Not too head in the clouds, down to earth moon leans toward practical concerns, money, time, effort spent & how our plans fit in the overall scheme of things.
12/14 Moon into Aquarius, Mercury sextile Neptune. The mood is a little experimental and imaginative. Shake it up by doing something out of the ordinary. Eat some squid ink pasta while composing esoteric poetry from your bathtub.
12/16 Venus moves into Sagittarius, shifting social preferences, interactions and tastes from close encounters of the dominatrix kind to a little bit of everything. This is Venus, International Style, with a catch-me-if-you-can attitude that leaves us all very non-committal, but always wanting more. Iâ€™ll take one of â€¦everything, please. The marketers for last minute Christmas Shopping love this Venus. Moon in Pisces shape shifts seamlessly.
12/18 First Quarter Moon in Pisces swims around what she wants to do. Impressionable and vacillating, we dive right in to a Moon in Aries that afternoon. Regardless of whatâ€™s unclear, we move forward with determination. Moon trines Venus in fire signs, take this Saturday night to the streets and enjoy natural spontaneity and enthusiasm. All fired up for 12/19 when Venus does an about face to Uranus. Someoneâ€™s cranky and looking for attention; we find it difficult to reconcile issues of freedom in relationship. Too much or too little, weâ€™re looking at how to get the best of both worlds. Jupiter in Libra andVenus in Sagittarius behold one another in mutual reception. This is like the Goddess of Love receiving the benefits of Fortuna. Whew, a planetary agreement saves the day! For now, and the next month or so it is possible to blend both freedom and relationship. This is also a great aspect for getting those last minute Christmas giftsâ€”your tastes may be unusual or you may find a surprise. Chances are youâ€™ll like what you find.
Mercury goes direct today, meaning green lights, go, the gate has been lifted. Now you can put into action those decisions and purchases, contracts youâ€™ve been holding at bay. Isnâ€™t it nice to have a little more positive feedback from the world? No more round robin on all the endless details, persnickety people and mechanical breakdowns. Mars trine Saturn is a steady hand guiding our energy in the right direction.
12/21 Sun moves from Sagittarius into Capricorn, Moon in Taurus. This is the winter solstice, when the night is the longest. The good news: from now on we get more daylight, not less. Capricorn energy is practical, efficient and focused on sustaining material and social resources; Moon in Taurus emphasizes this.
Tune into Capricorn by thinking of your prairie ancestors at this time of year in the cold, dead of winter. They had canned, dried food, chopped wood from the summer and fall so there would be food on the table, warmth in the house. This is a time of year when resources have always been harder to find- we can easily find ourselves in black or white thinking, focused on the bottom line. Look at your sadness or melancholy through the world lens of this phenomenon and it becomes bearable by connecting you to life.
12/24 Sun sextiles Uranus, Moon in Gemini. Throw a Christmas Eve mixer. This is a social day perfect for sleigh-bells ringing, are you listeningâ€¦ All good spirits are optimistic, and facing forward. The inner revolutionary nudges the Scrooge naysayer away.
New Moon Sagittarius poetry/wisdom offering to the Teacher within:
If we can dream it up, we can dream it down. -Rev Ike