Archives for March 2005

Libra Full Moon, Friday, March 25, 2005 12:58 PM PST

Libra Full Moon, Friday, March 25, 2005 12:58 PM PST

Spring is here! The promise of Aries is eager to get on with things, yet we face the challenge of renewal. To do so, we must clear out our winter cupboards of the past, a space bigger than a bread box, to make room for new. Both forward and backward thinking are required-‘huh? Your overwrought mind asks, ‘how can I look backward to correct the future?’ Clear some mental clutter: what do I need to drop off before I can spring ahead?

Here’s mind teaser to warm you up, in honor of Spring re-newal. The Catholic Church claimed Easter holiday as the resurrection day of Christ. Wait a second, Easter is exactly 9 months before the ‘virgin’ birth-what was Mary doing? The eggs and bunnies, eggs, bunnies, eggs-hmmm. BVM (Blessed Virgin Mary) was engaged in some Goddess festivities! But of course we know that all Christian holidays are displaced lunar holidays, what other explanation is there for the strange rituals of pine trees, eggs and such accompanying each Christian holiday. All started by those sex-crazed pagan goddess worshippers who evilly picked flowers, made mad love and decorated wishing eggs, probably with pentagrams, hiding them in secret dark and mysterious locations. And so the recycled story goes. Certainly a very special place is reserved for the person or group that bears the shadow of all we can’t own.

Case in point, the sad story of Ms. Schiavo of Florida, whose anorexia damaged body, is ironically kept alive on a liquid diet for the past 13 years. The pope has issued a statement, from his sick bed nonetheless, that only God decides when it’s time to go. Maybe this was true before medical science decided to play God, keeping people around longer than their natural shelf life. In his statement, Pope says ‘God, not politicians or scientists, decide when it’s time to die’. Really?

Our inheritance of half-truths constantly dialogues with the past, into the future and back, like a Spielberg special effect. It’s as though we have a liquid Technicolor well linking our personal and cultural histories. This well contains, among secrets to our success and demise, those mysteries as revealed by how we treat our self and others. In the physical world it’s easy to see where ‘others’ do wrong, where ‘they’ blame and disown instead of including and forgiving. How we do this in our inner emotional landscape may be harder to discern. Gaze deeply into the pool of your whys and wherefores.

Saturn’s move from retrograde suggests boundaries have shifted; some emotionally bound situation, in process of re-evaluation since November, has moved. Libra moon wants proper accountability. Do your values hold water like the Libra moon, swaying to and fro, changeable to circumstance, consensus or another persons opinion? Can you hold your own? The shadow of Aries sun asks: If you take a stand- is the call to battle stronger than the pursuit of understanding what is right and true for another? Is this war cry camouflaged by shadows of past injuries and fears?

Relationships are eager for new life as Venus, Sun face off Moon and Asteroid Goddess Pallas Athene. Pallas Athene suggests a strong urge toward justice and parity, possibly a contest of intellect. If you feel an inner struggle or engage in one, know that you will not be heard if you are motivated by right or might. In the history of conflict resolution, I’m positive no one ever changed an opinion with these tactics. By nature, force creates its opposite, resistance. True wisdom doesn’t rely on over intellectualized value systems. Wisdom doesn’t rely on justification, a veiled war tactic. The proof of wisdom is in the spontaneous and warm self-knowing it creates. In true Libran fashion, this requires a capacity to receive with an open heart. It is not always available, but when it happens it is wonderful to be received from this place.

Libra full moon sees both sides of an issue, the Goddess and the Patriarchy. The resurrection of Christ is a lovely theme, so startlingly alive that it moves masses of worshippers to a spiritual passion of devotion and longing. Those who have witnessed the last moments before death have been known to say ‘there’s no one so alive as a person on his death bed’. During winter we may’ve seen people die or get ill. Spring tests of spirit are built on our ability to cross the threshold into change. Goddess Persephone is intimate with this life impulse, spending ½ of her life with her husband, Hades, in the world of the dead, the other ½ above ground during Spring and Summer.

As she rises, filled with the freshness of both death and life so does the Goddess of Easter, Oestre. The Goddesses lovingly drops off those who have finished, and blow vibrant, playful Aries wind at the backs of the brave souls ready to begin again.

The winds of change are here. Make room for new life: bring your imperfect self and graciously forgive others imperfections along the way. Remember that we’re here to understand, not be understood. Then celebrate your ability to move forward by planting your spring eggs of ideas, visions & intuitive impulses into good earth. Do as the Goddesses, procreate and play!

BONUS: the superior conjunction of Venus.

The full moon illuminates relationship values-what we’ve learned over the past 9 months and how that’s changed what we’re doing now. Venus and the Sun meet in Aries for a superior conjunction which renews all things Venusian-relationships, our emotional make-up, value-system, preferences and how we make sense of life experience. During the past nine months our approach to relationship has been spontaneous, eager and impulsive- act now, think later. We may’ve had resiliency from emotions of fear and loss, less encumbered by the past. The next nine months Venus enters the second half of her cycle, where, like the full moon, she will reflect. Relationship values are now scrutinized in a more introverted, private way. This is the face of Venus that internalizes; we may more easily ruminate over hurts or disappointments in matters of the heart, carefully aligning steps forward with a tender spring-shoot value system, thinking deeply about what we say or do ahead of time. You’ve reached a threshold in matters of the heart-what has resulted from the past 9 months is a combination of failures and successes, only you can decide where you’ve grown and what still needs work. Think back to March 2001 for recurring themes.

Pallas Athene contributes to a woman’s relationship to her father; Venus symbolizes a man’s relationship to his mother. For both, this is a potent time to look at these relationships. Women: In myth, Pallas Athene is ruled by her intellect, having sprung from the head of her father. She adopted the ideology of the father, of patriarchy, in order to assume equality with the men. What looked ‘feminist’ was actually subordination of her feminine side. Men: Venus in Aries, this is the aspect of your mother who may not have wanted to be the mother. This Venus is independent, with goals and ambitions for herself-these weren’t easy or acceptable pursuits for women of earlier generations. Maybe this Venus wanted to be playing with her lover Mars, not tied down by the myriad demands of a family.

3/26 Early morning optimism with a dash of sensitivity lightens everyone up. Midday the energy changes (did you overdo it?) as early evening starts with a temporal physical symptom or limitation that dives right into thoughts of longstanding core blockages. Pluto goes down under until beginning of September. This is the planet of the subconscious, over these months seek and ye shall find dark stirrings from the bowels of your psychic dustbin. Pay attention to your trigger spot and work inward.

3/27 Moon is in Scorpio on Easter Sunday, the day of dark chocolate bunnies. Rich, deep and intensely sweet sensations are all possible. Watch for sugar low this evening, when irritation can spoil the spoils of warm fuzzies that need to last through Monday.

3/29 -3/30 the need for re-evaluation is apparent as Mercury redux joins the Sun and brings awareness and mental activity to a situation. As the mind circles itself with possibilities and options, Venus is eager to share these with others, especially new insights into relationship. Venus is moving at her maximum velocity, meeting with Sun at 7:30 PM PST, 3/30. Your relationship awareness on speed? Maybe. This Venus is feisty. If it’s already in the works, a culmination is likely- and likely to be quite good with some energy from the Sagittarius Moon stoking the passion fires. Moon throws logs into this fire dance as we celebrate our hard won truths about relationship, and contemplate where they will next lead.

3/31. Get busy and accomplish but all before 10:30 AM. Early morning optimism wanes as Moon joins Pluto late morning and things get heavier.

4/01 begins with a last quarter moon. Like the Fool, we step into April with several backward moving planets and impetus to somehow pull it all together. This is a good day to re-prioritize projects and examine plans for any errors.

4/02, 4/03 it may seem right to put pressure on someone else, or we are the recipient, feeling stretched as someone’s self-indulgent behavior is questionable. The demands of a situation may be unrealistic or expansionary, depending on your point of view. Find it useful to question outcomes before making promises or asking for too much. By examining expectations, wishful thinking is clarified like butter. Just as the process of making Indian ghee skims the fat for the rich golden essence-what you think you’re giving up is actually a gain, clarified into buttery gold.

4/05, 4/06 Put life on cruise control, kick back and listen to words on the wind or patterns in cloud skies. If you can find the motivation, during late afternoon of 4/05, inspiration is tuned toward spontaneous activity.

4/06 is a better day for measuring feet on the ground goals to head in the clouds vision as accomplishment peaks midday and wanes into evening shift.

4/07 begins the energy of a powerful new moon eclipse 4/08. Get ready to plant your new wishes for this passionate, fiery lunation.

Pisces New Moon, Thursday, March 10, 2005, 1:10 AM PST

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.

-Anais Nin

Pisces New Moon, Thursday, March 10, 1:10 AM PST

Where were you on 3/04 when Mercury tumbled out of Pisces long dream and announced the first call of spring? Were you asleep and dreaming or did you hear Aries ram hooves shuffling outside your door of consciousness? In the Bay Area, we could sense the change with the weather. A co-worker pinpointed the exact hour his hay fever appeared, to the tune of Mercuryís entrance into Aries. It was an instant shift when this antennae planet changed our perceptions. With parting clouds, sensations of springtime appeared: urgency, quickening, warmth in the air, on your ideas, a sudden and gradual awakening. The irritation of hay fever comes too, typical Aries style.

The Sun is in Pisces for another 10 days, things continue shifting and changing. The impetus of the New Moonís call is longing. But this is longing of Odysseus, the longing for that singular journey only you are called to make. As a Siren calls the voyage off course, so we are challenged to course-correct to the alluring dreams and goals of Pisces. Jupiter and Neptune both rule Pisces; Jupiter is the believer, knowing all things are possible. Neptune is the enchanted dark forest where things are not what they seem. You look at your reflection on the surface of water, your image dances with light and water. These are changeable impressions, color, light, water shift and move, and you realize these are perhaps more true than the solidity of your body. The longer you reflect, the less solid you feel, and the less certain you are about the nature of your well-constructed reality. A piece of music starts playing in the back of your mind, you canít get it out of your head and you really donít want to. The song is so pure and true for you, so connected to this experience of yourself right now, in fact, you feel more alive and connected to yourself than ever before. This is who I am, you think. But who are you?

The truth is you are far bigger than you. Pisces is infamous for their lives of sensory overload–existing in one body but taking on the nature of many other subjective realities all in the course of a day. Pisces copes by diffusing these experiences, blurring the lines to protect the mind from the temptation to believe & the temptation not to believe, in all of it. Jupiter watches over Pisces by offering a belief system, God or guru to protect the fragile mind from exploding all over the place in chaotic grasping. Meanwhile, Neptune lurks like a voluptuous mermaid vulture with an ethereal beauty, songs hopeful and melodic. Neptune is your Siren, a beautiful distraction with hurricane force power to crash your dreams into the rocks. The Neptune aspect of Pisces is strangely serene and benign, as the atmosphere right before a hurricane. Like Odysseus, you are on your journey and so heed the navigations of Mercury in Aries, the only clear-headed one around. Too good to be true, he says. Of course it is. You recognize the song of your demise. Meanwhile your crew has been lulled into a Neptunian coma; reality has abandoned ship.

Awaken yourself. The harbingers of reality: Saturn opposing Mars in a t-square to Jupiter. This troop contrasts dreamy visions to the hard work of staying on course. Jupiter at the helm will direct the crew to keep personal goals in focus, while Mars and Saturn are unruly crewmembers, the workhorse course-correctors. But Mars is always on sex-drive default and Saturn has a reputation for both school-marmish discipline and bad-boy duplicity. It’s a tricky proposition: we must be wary of the beautifully evil Sirens, yet allow for enchantment of the shimmering dream. Thereís a subtle difference between escapism and enchantment and we must carefully, reverently walk this threshold or risk total peril.

Venice is a sinking city, but I still dream on Venice. Ironically, the word Venice means serenity. The city knew it was sinking and so chose serenity. For Pisces, life is like this, an island of artistry, enchantment, mystery on constant verge of submersion by the great collective sea. I don’t buy real estate there, but I visit. I go to Venice in my imagination, this island of knowing. Maybe I’ll listen to the Sirens song from safely afar, dipping in for brief and ecstatic glances. Enigmatic, soulful, she re-fuels my devotion to the dreaming, to the emanation of everything.

These are the days

3/10 Possibilities are no longer potential, but tangible goals even as you watch them morph. Yet, frustration kicks in around the same time. But thereís room to move as Venus graces us with, well, grace. Saturnís cohorts remind you to honor your current commitments as overextension looms large. Responsibility is a worthwhile pursuit this evening when Saturn trines the Sun/Moon, letting us know that with careful planning and time/risk management, we can achieve some goals. Moon in Aries whispers more promise of spring in your ear into tomorrow.

3/12 Moon squares Saturn, Mars and trines Pluto all before the early afternoon. Your mood is cranky and restless but turns out to be a tour de force in emotional stamina. The evening has us settled down for the exactitude of Jupiter trine Neptune 3/14. Moon in Taurus is oriented toward the practical whilst the latter two are elusive dreamers. Mutual reception between Venus and Jupiter thru 3/22 opens us to artistic and creative pursuits. Since early March, Artists find these times exceptionally prolific & experimental.

3/14 What starts out mellow, easy even, by mid-afternoon has changed course.
This can animate you with an intensity of purpose and exacting executive abilities, or produce a heavy hand that forces your hand to the deeper demands of an issue. Venus trine Saturn suggests the solution that moves everyone forward is best accomplished by cooperation and responsibility to one another. Financial resources may need re-allocating today as we look at the bottom line of everything.

These planetary currents reverberate to 3/17. This first quarter square is busy networking in Gemini, but the environment may not be yielding the information you seek. The true issue may surface when evening brings us to our buried needs. Venus square Pluto shows up as experiences of power/lack of power in relationships, self-worth and questionable availability of resources. Combat loneliness and depression with some good Cancerian self-care. Cathartic activities heal; if feeling especially vulnerable be sensitive to your need for self-protection.

3/19 & 3/20 what a weekend! The big event of the day is Mercuryís retrograde in Aries. Mercury will retrograde in the sign of the ram until 4/12, creating extra potential and possibility for head-butting and courageous new ideas, perhaps even simultaneously. The usual instructions: communications and transportation are all subject to problems. Be careful with contracts and long-term plans made during this time period. If a plan is put into motion, it may change or fall apart by 4/12. Old friends reappear. Outstanding issues come back to haunt in an attempt toward reconciliation. However, itís a great time to tackle projects on the back burner, things youíve put off. Continuing what you’ve started and tying up the loose ends results in more mettle than muddle. Sun sextile Mars both in the last degrees of their respective signs prepare us for the burst of new energy tomorrow.

3/20 welcome spring equinox! Some of us don’t actually feel the strength and promise of 2005 until this day. Sun in Aries is the urge for life, all things in their seed potential, awaiting pollination. This is a heady fullness that doesnít quite know its power or force. Weíre renewed by this stamina, but yet unfamiliar with what it all means. Here’s an Aries suggestion: be a pioneer in anything you do.

Enter Mars into Aquarius. For the next month and a half, energy is especially focused on what doesn’t work to make way for expressions of individuality and uniqueness. Overlap with Mercury retrograde, watch out for aggrandizement of both self and others. As life is filled with contradictions, there is a subtext working here. We feel the newness but we don’t see it yet. Saturn’s got spring by the ankle, time is moving slowly as the planet changes pace to the tune of molasses.

3/21 Leo moon wants self-fulfillment in whatever form that may take, and with Saturn’s station to direct tonight, self-confidence means getting on with well-laid plans. The machinery has been in the shop all year and now the oiled gears shift and turn. This planet rules professionalism and social roles, expect some career restrictions to loosen up.

3/22 Venus enters Aries. Now we’re really cooking as the planet of relationship joins Sun and Mercury in Aries. Relationship tastes and preferences are hot and sudden, new and exciting. This Venus is about the thrill of the chase, stalking her prey to culminate in an erotic conquest. Wait; is this a relationship or a car show? Used constructively, Venus is really about taking a chance, finding the courage to love again or renew love with the fresh eyes of springtime. The thrill of this love involves risk-taking and even a little ego-stroking, vroom-vroom!