“Remember, the entrance door to the sanctuary is inside you.” -Rumi
I first moved out to California shortly after graduating from college, and my mother’s death. San Francisco proved to be far foggier and colder than I thought. The saving grace of that first home I lived in was its close proximity to a lush forest of Eucalyptus trees and California Lilies, providing a sacred space where I could be alone with my swirling thoughts, feelings and grief. The elegant California Lily called my name, asking to be painted. Though I have a degree in art, I’d never painted, but as I painted the Lily and eventually other flowers, I found the act of painting created a container, a way to connect to the loss of my mother. So I painted, my sadness pouring into the beauty, the act of creating beauty purifying my sadness.
Cancer New Moon touches our taproot: our home, feelings, mothers and mothering. How are we nurturing, caring for our self? If we have a flock of dependents relying on us, are we remembering that we must tend our basic needs, first? How do we feel? Do we have a private space in our home and life where we can process our emotions, and heal? Cancer connects us to the watery sea of our emotions, and just as with the ocean, our emotional tide is always changing. For Cancer born, and during the Cancer season, emotional expression and release guides us to deeper healing and allows us to more fully show up for others.
Sorrow can be sweet. Years later I still have these paintings, and the feelings that jump out of the paintings swirl with the deepening of a soul steeped in life’s changes. The emotional residues we experience in life, from daily disappointments and stressors to larger traumas, do accumulate. Cancer needs to feel to heal, and needs the privacy to do so. Along with your New Moon wishes, take a cue from Cancer and muck around in your emotions with the intention of releasing emotional backlog. Claim some private space and time to honor your feelings. Reflect on any self-care or heart needs you have been putting off for a rainy day. Cancer is a deeply sensitive Cardinal (initiating) sign; privacy is essential for such delicate inner work, and the natural space to do this work is at home. In the kitchen, a cooking session or a cup of tea shared with a loved one can be therapy; the dining room table can easily double as a desk for journaling or craft space. If you don’t have a home that inspires, feels nurturing and good inside: at this New Moon, why not brighten up your haven? Right now, the domestic world has protective, healing and regenerative powers to offer you.
image: The Charmer by John William Waterhouse