Equinox: Autumn’s Bittersweet Turning Inward

Walking the streets, the air feels different; people’s expressions are growing starker, more reserved. The Autumn Equinox signals the time when our psyches prepare to go inward.  Whereas the dance of summer is an outward & external play of expression, like Matisse’s celebratory painting Dance, autumn’s portrait is the bittersweet mortality of life.

Steven Forrest links Last Quarter Moon phase people to Autumn Equinox’s Mabon. Mabon is the pagan ritual of thanksgiving; the last quarter is that pivotal point when the moon, once full, is leaving an old cycle but hasn’t yet begun anew.  Last Quarter Moon people have an acute awareness of change, the ephemeral nature of life. They are oriented towards release, endings. The poignancy of harvest in the face of decay certainly matches the primacy of feelings that arise in autumn.

I was born during the Moon’s last quarter. The dramatic changes that have happened in my life have created continual crisis in consciousness (which is what Demetra George calls this Moon phase). These crisis, were never outwardly visible, experienced only in the privacy of my soul. When I was younger, the many events that required an epic leap in consciousness terrified me, cracked me open, then eventually writing, art, archetypes and ritual became ways of facilitating ongoing catharsis. As a result, the stuff of life that bothers many – petty grievances and annoyances, the small stuff – don’t often get to me. As I grow older, I appreciate this small grace.

At this Equinox, let go of the small stuff. Take time to reflect on your harvest. Include the spiritual and soul gifts that endings have given you, endings of relationships, eras, jobs, homes. These gifts are invisible to the naked eye– the fruits of laborious work that you accomplished in your soul. After acknowledging what you have, offer something of your self. Give a few coins to a street person, pay it forward. The reason for a harvest feast was dual: to offer thanks -and- to acknowledge the role of Gods/Goddesses in that harvest.

Fall Equinox is always marked by the Sun’s entry into Libra, the sign of relationship. We can turn over a new leaf in our relationships by letting old feelings go, forgiving someone, or looking at our disappointments from a spiritual perspective. Here’s a few questions you can take with you into the upcoming Full Moon in Aries. At Equinox, we’re at a time of endings. In allowing that ending to fully occur it yields a new beginning.

Think about a relationship you’ve had in your life that still give rise to difficult feelings. Maybe it didn’t last or go the way you wanted it to, you haven’t forgiven them, or judged yourself as a failure. 

  • Did they overtly or serendipitously influence a major life decision you might not have made without them? 
  • Did they influence a big or small choice- to go back to school, start a business, move to another state, pick up a book, take a trip -that influenced another decision that absolutely changed your life? 
  • Did this person serve as a catalyst in your life, offering you their influential, dynamic or disruptive energy so that something else could take place? 
  • If you felt you shouldered an unfair burden in the relationship, what personal strength did you develop as a result of carrying that burden?  

Pluto in Capricorn Station-Direct: Purge, Release, Renew

I had just made a pilgrimage the scene of my own personal nightmare, a place where I was once taken by the darkness, stripped of illusions, lost my personal power (& almost died): I attended my 20 year High school reunion. Eventually, many years later, I realised I had been under the slow burning influence of Pluto (in Santa Fe, my natal Twelfth House Pluto relocates to my Ascendant) explaining why every time I returned to Santa Fe over the years it was like jumping from the frying pan into the fire. Case in point: 2001, when I moved back home and got a job waiting tables. Then 9.11 happened. The economy shut down, and wracking up a huge debt, being re-wounded by old but still present family trauma, I left again. After that, I was sure I’d never be back. After that (as one of my high school girlfriend soul mates reminded me this weekend), I declared I will never come back again…at least not without a sage stick. How appropriate that I finally return as Pluto moves stationary-direct. How Pluto.

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Pisces Full Moon: Zen Moon

koi_by_weewill-d613rdiAs a writer, I experience periodic blocks. I don’t think creative blocks are exclusive to artists. People experience life blocks all the time, periods in your life where despite your best efforts and intentions (or maybe because of them) the things you try to do just don’t seem to get traction or go anywhere. It’s as if, as I described the downside of a Neptune transit to a client recently: God presses the pause button. Then patiently waits for you to figure out that you can’t repeat the same thing you’re doing and get different results. Since you don’t have an answer, or know who or what to be yet, you might as well draw a picture, noodle around on your ukulele, chant mantras and play at being Zen. Till one day you wake up to discover you’re in a place of self-acceptance, you no longer have the same problems you once did… and you’re actually enjoying your self. [Read more...]

Virgo New Moon: Humble Harvest

Zemnya-VirgoAstraea, the Goddess associated with Virgo, was the last immortal to live on Earth, until she left in disgust, so disturbed by humanity’s wickedness, evil and corruption. If she was truly a Virgo, she probably also developed a digestive, respiratory condition or other physical ailment from all the pollution, too. Nonetheless, Astraea became part of the starry constellation we call Virgo and when the planets pass through her piece of the sky, we too become peevish, turning a critical eye on our life, our world. All the things that we wish were different annoy us. We easily see what needs cleansing, organising, fixing, improving. Astraea’s legacy to us was the urge for a more perfect existence. [Read more...]

Aquarius Full Moon: The Aquarian Stands Apart

aquariusThere are only a few people I speak to consistently on a weekly basis: my husband and my therapist. My husband is a Leo, and my therapist is an Aquarian. As I interact with entirely different personalities, I receive very different gifts. Affection, play, fun-loving antics are the Leo’s specialty. An entertainer exemplar, he makes serious business of clowning around, and his generally sunny disposition makes him impossible to be down around. A human being like all of us, he can demonstrate those other, less attractive Leo qualities, too…and that’s where the Aquarian comes in. The Aquarian has the mental clarity of a fresh spring. The Aquarian, who is innately at odds with collectively agreed upon reality, brings in different angles, tools and perspectives. Pulling on experiences the collective doesn’t or won’t acknowledge, she has over time won the hard-earned wisdom of a truthsayer. [Read more...]

Leo New Moon: Step Into The Light

Theatre stage with red curtain and spotlights on the stage floor.

Do you see me? Do you see? Do you like me?
Do you like me standing there? Do you notice?
Do you know? Do you see me? Do you see me?
Does anyone care?  -Ode to My Family, The Cranberries

As an introvert, I doubt I’ll ever feel comfortable being the center of attention. While getting onstage, being in front of or even standing out in a crowd, well, the lump of fear to simply get up and put it out there is so large that I want to flee. Yet there’s nothing more invigorating than taking to the stage and expressing my Self. At some point, sometimes mid-way but always afterwards, I feel on top of the world. I feel powerful strong and fearless, like I can do and accomplish anything. I feel my Sun. [Read more...]

Jupiter in Leo: Dare To Shine

exuberant girl and camelAlways jump in the puddles!  Always skip alongside the flowers.  The only fights worth fighting are the pillow and food varieties.  -Terri Guillemets

Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You. -Dr. Seuss

Children have neither past nor future; they enjoy the present, which very few of us do.  -Jean de la Bruyere

What a distressing contrast there is between the radiant intelligence of the child and the feeble mentality of the average adult. -Sigmund Freud

The end of childhood is when things cease to astonish us. When the world seems familiar, when one has got used to existence, one has become an adult.  -Eugene Ionesco [Read more...]

Capricorn Full Moon: The Shape Of My Heart

Heart Shadow by KissMeApocalypse

Before the Uranus-Pluto square began making matters of life direction (and pretty much everything) tougher to unravel, it was much easier for me to offer Joseph Campbell’s career advice to those clients who were miserable in their professions. “Follow your bliss” I’d say, and point to the major career indicators in the chart: Sun (creative ego), the MidHeaven sign and Tenth House Planets (mission, purpose; what you are here to contribute to the world), Venus (joy). But in recent years it’s struck me that some people cannot or do not know how to connect their own happiness. Happiness belongs to the Moon. [Read more...]

The Nudge of The Moon

moonIt’s Cancer Sun season. The Sun is now ruled by the Moon, so it’s a time for quieting down, listening to the Soul. The feminine Moon presides over our heart and soul while the masculine Sun presides over the Ego, the Self, and it’s glorious prizes of achievement and recognition. While both dance across the sky of the cosmos together, how clearly our world favors the Sun over the Moon. We basically ‘go, go, go’ all the time trying to accomplish what? We scrap for replenishing down time, struggle with honoring the expression of our feelings, and all but neglect taking the time to listen to our heart. It’s a solar world we live in, and one revolving around accomplishment and ambitions because that’s the way the Sun rolls.

The result is, our lunar, or heart nature has become severely depleted, or under-nourished and often all but ignored. [Read more...]

Cancer New Moon: Healing Sanctuary

the charmer by waterhouse

“Remember, the entrance door to the sanctuary is inside you.” -Rumi

I first moved out to California shortly after graduating from college, and my mother’s death.  San Francisco proved to be far foggier and colder than I thought. The saving grace of that first home I lived in was its close proximity to a lush forest of Eucalyptus trees and California Lilies, providing a sacred space where I could be alone with my swirling thoughts, feelings and grief. The elegant California Lily called my name, asking to be painted. Though I have a degree in art, I’d never painted, but as I painted the Lily and eventually other flowers, I found the act of painting created a container, a way to connect to the loss of my mother. So I painted, my sadness pouring into the beauty, the act of creating beauty purifying my sadness.

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