I live in a tree house that sits high above our small town, overlooking a canyon. From my living room window, I can see hawks circling the valley below looking for lunch while in the distance the sun shimmers on the ocean bay. Removed from the bustling town center and with a wide panorama view that Mother Nature reserves only for birds, this mountain-top home preaches the art of perspective. I love it for many reasons, but the consistent effect it seems to have on others and myself is a sense of expansion. It’s near impossible to feel small and insignificant for too long when confronted by such spaciousness. It stuns you into submission. When life has me feeling tight and cramped inside, the feeling doesn’t stick around very long. Not here. All I have to do is take a meditative look at the expansiveness in front of me and I am drenched in the bigger view. [Read more...]
Every week since I’ve been in Stockholm, I’ve visited a European bathhouse. In the midst of a bustling city street, an old-timey sign appears advertising that you can “restore and relax like it’s 1904”. The facilities are modern enough -several warm pools, heated swimming pool, steam and dry saunas, all situated below ground and in this warm cavern you can’t help but slowly unwind. Afterwards, too rubbery legged and relaxed to begin my journey home, I take tea in the crisply bright artificial sunlight. The funny thing is, every time I go, I think maybe I can skip today… but when I arrive, my aching body sighs and I think: oh how I’ve needed this. The pleasure of finding deep relaxation, the calm and peace so deeply helpful and restorative to both body and psyche, battered by living with chronic pain. [Read more...]
In tune with Scorpio season, darkness is descending on Stockholm. As the Sun begins to set around 3 PM, and dark by 4PM, the sky will consecutively darken and by February the Sun will only make a 2-hour appearance. It is the perfect environment for skulking through the gorgeous graveyards inhabited by glamorous dead people like Greta Garbo, and for writing crime and mystery novels. Today is All Saint’s Day (November 1) where candles are lit for ancestor’s graveyards. Endless night, combined with the fact that expressing extreme emotion (including celebrating or drawing attention to oneself) is socially discouraged, I understand why Scandinavian mystery, murder and mayhem novelists find it so easy to take darkness to a whole new level. [Read more...]
There is a cosmic tone happening right now, and it will continue through 2015. Many people are questioning whether their life *as it is* is truly sustainable. Individual circumstances vary but the feelings of unhappiness, despair are common and at core there is a deep inner knowing that what we have been doing for the last XX years is not supporting the future person we want to become. This is not only true for some of us individually, but as we are seeing, it is true for us collectively as a whole. Systems in our government are broken, false starts leading to perpetual impasse. Individuals are in jobs, relationships and situations that are holding them back, yet the path forward is unclear for a time, and then when the truth of what must happen does reveal itself (in a dramatic, painful call from the authentic Self), answering that call feels, and perhaps is, threatening to the survival of the body, job, relationship, Self and Ego. Something may need to be given up, to die, to move forward; something may need to so dramatically change that even if outer circumstances stay the same, it feels like a death is occurring. [Read more...]
Lately, I’ve been thinking about the fluke of me (what? huh? me??!!) living in Stockholm for these four months. Most often, I’ve been awestruck, amazed, overwhelmed with gratitude that my husband, soul mate and now Fulbright Scholar has given me the gift of this — the biggest overseas experience we’ve had yet. Life is an experience, and this is one that I will remember forever. But on a few other occasions, the harder times, times when I’ve yearned for the comforts and friends of home, times wondering what I will do with my days, weeks, months… I’ve felt cast adrift, a boat bobbing along on the sea, tethered to and reluctantly tugged forward by my partner’s professional goals and their fulfilment. [Read more...]
The person we represent our self as being, is not often the person we are. Politicians present a straight-talking wholesome face to their constituents while behind the scenes they are making dirty, self-interested deals. Remember the first time you saw a woman without her makeup, and she became a whole different person? A well-crafted image is something we all create in relationship, too. We choose the right clothes, say the right thing or joke, omit certain bits of information about our self, play up others. I notice this phenomenon a lot on Facebook where most folks tend to share only the good and the best of their selves. In this carefully curated gallery of selfies, celebrations (promotions, birthdays), quirky news items, deep thoughts and beautiful pictures are shared liberally. I’m as guilty of this as anyone. I have Venus on the MidHeaven, and Libra Rising: I work hard to create beauty worth beholding!
Venus is the archeytpe of “good marketing.” When she’s good, she’s very good and when she’s bad, well, unless she’s a Scorpio, she leaves those things out of the conversation. No one sees a new mama’s tears in that endless stream of baby pictures, and no one will ever see me having a bad hair day on FB either. It’s not wrong to portray your life in a certain light; it’s just lopsided. When we craft an image we’re also creating a myth of our self and the story you create about you, others believe, too. Is it real? Sure. Is it an illusion? Absolutely. Love the paradox of Libra. [Read more...]
The first time I tried to write this blog it disappeared. Typical Neptune. I had been writing it within another document and although the other piece remained, Neptune just vanished. Similar experiences have happened with Neptune involved: a married client talks about her ghost lover during a session, and my recording device on my computer times out leaving us with no evidence of the discussion. Neptune absconds with time, too, as if to prove that actions mark time, and that without actions time is made irrelevant; many Neptune transits leave the person experiencing them with a Neptune-induced amnesia — people forget what they did for days, weeks and even years. Books are started and half-finished, romances appear then disappear, houses are swept away by floods… There must be a special place in heaven for those still left wondering, “Whaaatt?” by their Neptune transit. A “Neptune” Lost and Found, a place where people can go and be reunited with lost objects, people, ideas, lives. I hope so.
The Neptune Square is a generational transit. It happens for all of us between the ages 40-42, for approximately a 2 year passage. The Neptune Square introduces itself with a general malaise and fatigue, dis-enchantment if you will, with how things have panned out so far. The timing of this makes sense. Your thirties are a busy time spent striving to make goals and livelihoods happen. Most of us are building a career, relationship and family and all of this takes so much energy, energy we can senselessly spend, and often without stopping to pause or self-introspection, because we do have the energy and determination to forge ahead. [Read more...]
Virgo is a busy time of new commitments and new agendas. If Virgo season had a scent it would be the smell of pencil shavings and fresh paper. If Virgo had a signature look, it would be perfectly put together: our first day of school outfit. If Virgo had a library it would be full of self-help books, how-to and educational texts. The Virgoan urge for productivity, squaring things up, planning and scheduling, listing and problem solving is reflected in everything we say, wear and do this season.
Ah, if only everything were so neat and tidy. If only we could throw our life’s problems into the Virgo processor and have them reformulated and regurgitated back out, with easy to follow instructions. But that is not life on Earth, and Pisces Moon knows it. There’s so much in the world we cannot ever “figure out”, questions we may never find answers for. Do UFO’s exist? Reincarnation? And how do we justify natural disasters, like last week’s flood in Lyons, Colorado that swept a high school friend’s home away. Just the night before, I had happened to dream about him, for the first time in years. The next morning, my heart dropped as I read his simple Facebook status update “my house is being taken by the river.” An incredulous someone asked if this was metaphorical. Pictures soon followed. [Read more...]
Relocating to Stockholm for four months has been a monumental move. Clothing for three seasons was made doable by my handsome and handy (Mercury in Virgo) husband’s packing cube system – genius! Packing up our five person household and making it tidy for our temporary tenant was both satisfying and wearying and I was never so happy to sink into the seat of a fifteen-hour flight than I was that day. To hop on a plane is easy, but to journey without losing your mind and passport is not. Luckily, the productive Virgo Sun and Mercury were holding space for us, providing clever solutions when we needed them, economizing efforts with smart systems, and honing us in on the details when we truly couldn’t afford error. [Read more...]
The Eleventh House. The house of Aquarius, associated with Visions and Dreams, Hopes and Goals for the Future, Friendships and Allies. When I first began studying astrology, the Eleventh House was enigmatic. I’d think: A planet in the House of “Wishes?” Well, sprinkle pink fairy dust and spin me around three times. Over time I realized the way to properly understand this assortment of descriptors was thru Aquarius’ golden rule: the right friends, allies and networks always help you achieve your goals for the future. There is a universal truism here: we may be outsiders, aliens or iconoclasts but we can never arrive at a future, at least one we want, alone (a natal planet here cements the importance of this truth). [Read more...]