Leo New Moon: Step Into The Light

Theatre stage with red curtain and spotlights on the stage floor.

Do you see me? Do you see? Do you like me?
Do you like me standing there? Do you notice?
Do you know? Do you see me? Do you see me?
Does anyone care?  -Ode to My Family, The Cranberries

As an introvert, I doubt I’ll ever feel comfortable being the center of attention. While getting onstage, being in front of or even standing out in a crowd, well, the lump of fear to simply get up and put it out there is so large that I want to flee. Yet there’s nothing more invigorating than taking to the stage and expressing my Self. At some point, sometimes mid-way but always afterwards, I feel on top of the world. I feel powerful strong and fearless, like I can do and accomplish anything. I feel my Sun. [Read more...]

Jupiter in Leo: Dare To Shine

exuberant girl and camelAlways jump in the puddles!  Always skip alongside the flowers.  The only fights worth fighting are the pillow and food varieties.  -Terri Guillemets

Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You. -Dr. Seuss

Children have neither past nor future; they enjoy the present, which very few of us do.  -Jean de la Bruyere

What a distressing contrast there is between the radiant intelligence of the child and the feeble mentality of the average adult. -Sigmund Freud

The end of childhood is when things cease to astonish us. When the world seems familiar, when one has got used to existence, one has become an adult.  -Eugene Ionesco [Read more...]

Capricorn Full Moon: The Shape Of My Heart

Heart Shadow by KissMeApocalypse

Before the Uranus-Pluto square began making matters of life direction (and pretty much everything) tougher to unravel, it was much easier for me to offer Joseph Campbell’s career advice to those clients who were miserable in their professions. “Follow your bliss” I’d say, and point to the major career indicators in the chart: Sun (creative ego), the MidHeaven sign and Tenth House Planets (mission, purpose; what you are here to contribute to the world), Venus (joy). But in recent years it’s struck me that some people cannot or do not know how to connect their own happiness. Happiness belongs to the Moon. [Read more...]

The Nudge of The Moon

moonIt’s Cancer Sun season. The Sun is now ruled by the Moon, so it’s a time for quieting down, listening to the Soul. The feminine Moon presides over our heart and soul while the masculine Sun presides over the Ego, the Self, and it’s glorious prizes of achievement and recognition. While both dance across the sky of the cosmos together, how clearly our world favors the Sun over the Moon. We basically ‘go, go, go’ all the time trying to accomplish what? We scrap for replenishing down time, struggle with honoring the expression of our feelings, and all but neglect taking the time to listen to our heart. It’s a solar world we live in, and one revolving around accomplishment and ambitions because that’s the way the Sun rolls.

The result is, our lunar, or heart nature has become severely depleted, or under-nourished and often all but ignored. [Read more...]

Cancer New Moon: Healing Sanctuary

the charmer by waterhouse

“Remember, the entrance door to the sanctuary is inside you.” -Rumi

I first moved out to California shortly after graduating from college, and my mother’s death.  San Francisco proved to be far foggier and colder than I thought. The saving grace of that first home I lived in was its close proximity to a lush forest of Eucalyptus trees and California Lilies, providing a sacred space where I could be alone with my swirling thoughts, feelings and grief. The elegant California Lily called my name, asking to be painted. Though I have a degree in art, I’d never painted, but as I painted the Lily and eventually other flowers, I found the act of painting created a container, a way to connect to the loss of my mother. So I painted, my sadness pouring into the beauty, the act of creating beauty purifying my sadness.

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Chiron: Pain Without Suffering

Is it possible to experience pain without suffering? As a person who has lived chronic illness for 23 years, and the last 11 of those odilonwith chronic pain, yes it is. Case in point: when my Fibromyalgia pain was at its most awful worst, awash with both pleasure and pain chemicals, I fell head over heels in love. Looking back, it seems miraculous because I know now that pain can be the worst form of terrorist who holds your body, soul, life hostage, at gunpoint. Yet it doesn’t have to. Pain –of any form, psychological, mental, spiritual, heart- can exist without suffering. Pain can be “what is”. We can be present to pain without loading it up with despair, hopelessness, alienation, fear, terror, separation. It’s even possible to feel grief, loss, sadness and loneliness without suffering.

I’m learning this the hard way. I’m in the middle of my Neptune square (it happens for all of us, during ages 40-42): a time when life can lose it’s magic, when it’s easy to lose your way. Watery Neptune brings in the mist-ical and mystical; its transits are characterized by feelings, feelings of fogginess, and emotions that are mythic in proportion but feel very personal.  Somewhere in the fog I began emotionally identifying with the pain, and learned: ouch, that’s how pain turns into suffering.

Chronic (chiron-ic) pain is a reality of life, and for some (especially those with Chiron strongly featured in their birth chart), pain is a larger reality and lifelong teacher. At the time of this writing, Chiron is station-retrograde in the sky, turning up the volume on Chiron themes for all of us. No one is immune from the slings and arrows of life’s misfortunes, they are indeed a part of life, and no one teaches this better than Chiron. [Read more...]

Sagittarius Full Moon: A Life Less Ordinary

Screen Shot 2014-06-10 at 10.26.47“Dwell in possibility.”
“Truth is so rare it is delightful to tell it.”
- Emily Dickinson

Famous Sagittarian (Sun, Mercury, Venus) poet Emily Dickinson may seem an unlikely fit for this adventurous sign. Emily was an ordinary recluse, an eccentric social hermit who wore white clothing and eventually lived her life from one room. You wouldn’t know it from her poetry. Born with the Spirit of the Adventurer, Emily’s inner life was colorful, expansive, rich. She ventured inward, and created her own meaningful diversions. In her time, Dickinson, probably better known for her botany skills and glorious garden than poetry (according to Wiki), wrote that she “could inhabit the Spice Isles merely by crossing the dining room to the conservatory, where the plants hang in baskets.” Emily was also born with Moon (Libra) in the Twelfth House (chart), explaining her chosen solitude and enchanting imagination. She was also irrepressibly optimistic, her writings often banished darkness with optimism and hope -a skill of the torch-bearing Ninth Sign: “I saw no Way/The Heavens were stitched/I felt the Columns close/The Earth reversed her Hemispheres/I touched the Universe…” [Read more...]

Gemini New Moon: Refreshing Power

WhereHeavensMeetEvery day is a new chance to be healthy. I remember reading this phrase, cut out from a magazine, on a friend’s vision board twenty odd years ago. The “Every day is a new chance to…” felt so enticing to me. What I didn’t know even then was that I was about to make a big decision that changed the course of my life – to uproot and move halfway across the country – and that spontaneous decision would happen to spin on the edge of a dime at that same dear friend’s urging to claim my happiness, to follow my heart. It was a radical and bold suggestion. And years later, when I feel stuck in a rut, bored, sick, uninspired, I remind myself that every day holds this promise and wonder: I can be made fresh, brand new.

We all get stuck in routines of habit, boredom and apathy. We think this is how it always has been, and so will be. Along comes Gemini. If you’ve ever had the experience of reading a book, listening to a teacher or being in conversation with someone who says something in that fresh and just-for-you way that shifts your entire perception of your self and your life, you’ve been touched by the Gemini angels. [Read more...]

Scorpio Full Moon: Vital Bonds

ouroborosLove always involves a dance between closeness and putting up walls. We love each other, hurt, annoy and frustrate each other. Lately I’ve been doing the latter, tainting the precious time we have together with emotional jujitsu. I feel irrational when he talks too long and laughs too hard with the wait staff on date night, so I pick a fight goes something like “I’m not enough for you?” though as I am saying this I know I’m being dishonest. Those aren’t my true feelings, but an excuse for a clingy-ness I don’t yet understand. [Read more...]

Taurus New Moon Solar Eclipse: Basic Sanity

bull in nature weheartitDuring the weeks surrounding Eclipse season, such as the one we are currently in, emotions and energy can be ragged, uneven, which can leave us feeling frazzled, disembodied, ungrounded.  There’s dynamism in the air but unsettledness, too -including reactivity and disturbances in our relationships (Libra Lunar Eclipse). As my friend, April, succinctly said in her essay two weeks ago, “This Full Moon Lunar Eclipse comes with a clear message: your relationship style has outlived its usefulness.” Boy, did it. Echoes reverberate as we determine how to proceed with those we love, without blame, judgment and with love & compassion for our self and others. [Read more...]