New Moon Gemini, Monday, June 6 2005 2:55 PM PST

If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him. -Zen koan

There is no such thing as a true story. -Pema Chodron

Mind cannot see itself, it cannot see its own projections. -the Buddha

New Moon Gemini, Monday, June 6 2005 2:55 PM PST

The winds of change whoosh through our ears, push at our backs. Every idea leads to another and every thought spurns a new one. As fire reaches for air and air adds fuel to the fire, this is the state of our minds. When the mind is working at optimum efficiency, our environment reflects this- active, changing and groundless. The mind is powerful, covering great distances in a single bound. Like a great superhero, wherever the mind turns its attention, solutions appear and dissolve, questions are asked, sometimes answered, sometimes disappearing. Agile & nimble, we find that we think ourselves into circles and the circles lead to even deeper thoughts. It’s an endless thought universe and we’re learning that every thought we give attention to garners & gathers energy, creating something of precious value, and that not every thought is as it first appears.

Yet, some are. How do we know the difference? How do we know when to trust our perceptions? Mercury is the ruler of Gemini, and Gemini is the law of two. With this new moon, we’re divided right down the middle. There are two choices, or maybe it only appears to be two, really each just half of a whole? Because nothing is what it appears to be, the question may appear to be more of a riddle or a Zen koan. ‘How frustrating!’, you exclaim, “where’s the easy astrology 101 lesson?” Well, dear reader, you find yourself at the mercy of a philosopher after a weekend with two venerated Buddhist teachers on the topic of deconstructing the mind. Buckle up, you’ve read this far so might as well continue.

In Buddhist tradition, the root cause of human suffering is conceptuality. There we sit in life always with our divided thoughts, hairsplitting between the old and new, good or evil, happy or sad, black or white. What will you name your concept? Depression versus Happiness? Romantic Love versus Divine Love? Evil versus Good? This job versus that job? My perfect world versus your perfect world? We do this to one another; we do this in the way we divide our self. Isn’t it endless, the way we try to make one side solid and discredit the other?

We need a hero, a special kind of superhero to help us through this dilemma of seeing the world in black or white. But this isn’t an easy task for our hero. We need to believe in what we see to live functional lives that make sense, but hold a space for believing none of it! Enter the trickster Bodhisattva (Sanskrit word for compassionate being) Mercury. Mercury is the planet of relative mind, he is the only one the ancients afford privilege of traveling between worlds human and divine. To pass through the gates of heaven or hell Mercury makes himself invisible, often by wearing disguises. ‘Don’t believe everything you see!’, he says raucously. We simply can’t see the deliverer of the Divine message with our human eyes. Remember that ex- lover who delivered a message you were unable to receive until hindsight? You continue to hold onto your belief: ‘I was jilted, I was wronged, he/she figured out all my buttons and pushed them!’ That is our relationship to Mercury. To quote Pema Chodron again: ‘It gets pretty unsettling to keep trying to put ground underneath our perceptions when the rug keeps getting pulled out from under us.’

But what do we make of the present, caught in either/or thinking? When thoughts are like mercurial trickster elves, dancing all around pretty little ideas about what I Want, about who I Am what I Believe what brings Me Happiness? They tempt and tease, using every possible guise to trick self into believing ‘This is who I Am, this is who I Am Not!’ Heed Mercury’s warning: do not believe everything you think. As the archetypal riddler, Mercury is never as he appears. Yet we must learn how to recognize him when he does.

Mercury shows up virtually unrecognizable, the moment when we are at our wits end. We are at a crossroads in a foreign country and we can’t understand the language, let alone read the street signs. Here is the one legged man, the unassuming helper, the black cat that darts across your path and ends up distracting the hungry wolves, the magician, astrologer, the new lover. Does he carry an answer? There’s something here we don’t trust-he tells us who he is, but we don’t quite believe him. Glib & silver tongued with the most fabulously indistinguishable accent. There’s more to the story than he’s letting on-or maybe it’s all that shiny used car salesman hair gel. Like a love junkie who changes his story for every new girl he meets, we know we’re in the presence of a smooth talker. But whoa, what do we discover in the bedroom? Even his sexuality isn’t clear; in myth Mercury is androgynous. Here we are completely confused by choosing any of the four directions, road blocked by what we do not understand and this strange apparition appears out of nowhere. And so we pin our last hope on this hero with the gift of timing, a sort of superhero of the moment. We trust in the spontaneous arising of this strange character at the exact time we need him. And to our surprise, he pulls it off.

Never before have we so badly needed this superhero. It’s a sign of the times, like automobiles being built with navigation systems, we’re in desperate need of guides, maps, and sudden unveilings. We have barometers that intricately measured the satisfaction of the old life. And that is how we got in this predicament. Our measurements for happiness are incredibly outdated. This brand new life requires new ways of thinking. Old ways of being no longer work, but the new paradigms don’t hold the weight of water-yet.

We need someone who can walk between the worlds of bungled jargon, lectures on morality, or our own hyper cerebral cortex meltdowns of magnanimous proportion. Someone to remind us of our birthright, the vast space between heaven and earth, an arid, dry volcano crater like atmosphere, pregnant with possibility, wonder and awe. Discovery is the promise, and if we can detach our self enough from our subjective bias, engage our curiosity more than our fears, we become true sculptors of fluidity and motion. When we learn this skill, we become yogini mediums of flow. Flowing smoothly between divine connection and divine conception, we are unattached and therefore unmatched. Consider this New Moon an invitation as similar to that beginning of a brand new relationship. It has the quality similar to getting together with a new lover, when directly preceding the get together your mind immediately, habitually puts all the ways it sees the world onto the other. You just jump to conclusions about how THEY SHOULD BE, a recipe for certain disaster. Isn’t it true that the only way the relationship will survive is if you let your mind just fall apart? Like Mercury the Bodhisattva, your ability and skill for holding paradox, the space between, is the only way you’ll survive.

Today New Moon day, 6/06. In case you haven’t noticed, today thoughts are penetrating and powerful. Words should be carefully chosen for they seem to carry a hidden impact or strength. The tendency to obsess or brood can be heightened if only because what you’re thinking about runs so deeply into your personal truth.

The first couple weeks of this moon cycle points to adjustments in thinking and perception. There’s a planetary logic like a cascading waterfall into the rapids. What has recently begun now emerges with sudden apparent awareness, soon taking a twist and course correcting. The net results of awareness are being tested on the stomping grounds of relationship. It’s not easy, but its not overly demanding either-as the past couple of weeks have been. (Astrologers vacation: sorry for missing last newsletter- the shocks and challenges in interpersonal relationships I was unable to point out!) Jupiter’s recent direct motion this past weekend points to a new ease. Don’t worry if you missed graduation, you can still celebrate with a glass of sparkling bubbly, Jupiter’s favorite. What’s been percolating in Finding My Way 101 class since February 1 is now ready for the next step. Now unleash your wisdom on the world! However loud and enthusiastic we feel, truly this New Moon energy is the art of walking softly and carrying a big stick.

6/07 will carry the energy of intense mental output from yesterday, spilling over to tomorrow. The early morning could bring mild frustration, ending in a stalemate. Learn the necessity of going undercover with your opinions, seek the source instead of pointing to the cause. When moon glides into Cancer early evening, ground yourself by staying home and doing things around the house. The mind is relieved when you’re released into dreamtime later this evening.

6/08-6/09 give our thoughts back to our body. Although the West seems to think that mind is located in the head, in Tibet the mind is located in the viscera, the region of the stomach and solar plexus. Does this make more sense? When we’re agitated or excited we can actually FEEL this to be true. Locate your mind in your stomach/\body with Sun, Mercury in Gemini, Moon in Cancer. Generally, this is great instruction for staying in the body during this Sun in Gemini time-the tendency is to live in the head. Refresh your relationship with the body by taking a walk in nature. Make room for pleasure around noon 6/08, or else notice work stop and daydreaming begin. A little excitement during the afternoon leads to reveling in more new thoughts. 6/09 late afternoon to evening propels us into ponderous seriousness. Work late tonight because tomorrow you certainly won’t want to.

6/09-10 a little double trouble. An ant in your tea or a fly in your ear, anticipates a sound off of unforeseeable annoyances. Irritability leads to communication challenges. Whether these are minor or not depends on your ability to fish it out, or at a raw level, swat at it (not recommended). Everything’s a little more or less bearable by the fact that everyone seems to be over the top right now, pleasure for the sake of pleasure. Double your fun. Is it an attack of excess or exaggeration? Easily lending to overindulgence, we eat too many cupcakes and everyone at the party goes home with tummy ache. On the other hand, says Mercury, sidestep the ‘accident prone’ and go prone. Assume the position of relaxation and make sure its easy because lately it seems, we’ve developed an allergy to work. Tonight: seek weekend remedy.

6/10- 6/12 Remedy: some really good music and art this weekend. Moon in Leo demands it. The planet of action & sexuality, Mars, enters Aries 6/11 thru 7/26. Women: we want the men in our life to resemble the archetypal storybook. Assume the appearance of Brad Pitt, now! For all of us, this is truly the warrior archetype, the drive toward accomplishment, competition and action. Here’s Mars’ ultimatum: ‘ Either step up to the plate or get out of the game!’ Over the next few days repeat this martial statement and see if it more easily accesses your inner hero. You’re responding to the urgent, hot drive of Mars, never easy to handle and often best worked out in competitive sports or anything that requires concentrated and precise focus of a life/death quality.

Same day, Mercury makes a very speedy tour of Cancer thru 6/26. Wow, talk about thoughts moving at the speed of light. We’re all abuzz between what was and what is becoming. Although Cancer looks to the past, family and emotional security for stability, perhaps we’re recognizing this is both evasive and problematic. However, the next few weeks the mind is soothed by a certain level of nostalgia for what was, whether that’s warm milk for the belly or the spirit.

Don’t get too homebound yet though, as late night 6/11, early morning 6/12 provides an opportunity for appreciation of the unusual. Do something a little different on Saturday night, as your traditional Betty Crocker Venus in Cancer actually wants to go out instead of stay at home with her knitting needles.

6/12- 6/14 Sunday evening 6/12 re-triggers the walk softly carry big stick dilemma. There’s a question of power struggles, perhaps you’ve let someone else carry the stick and its time to see that which is rightfully yours. Moon in Virgo requires careful analysis of what’s actually going on and now have an ability to see the hidden dynamic of a situation. A sudden insight occurs mid-afternoon that drags us down into the details for the evening. Arm yourself with perspective and a good theme song, like this one:

I love this hour
When the tide is just turning
There will be an end
To the longing and yearning
If i can stand up
To angels and men
I’ll never get swallowed
In darkness again

(see * below)

This new quarter moon marks another turning point- Uranus goes retrograde thru 11/15. Unusual, seemingly senseless activity precedes all change. Changes are less obvious to the seen world, but deep impact appears in consensus reality mid-November.

6/15-16 Moon enters Libra as sociable exchanges and self-reminders to ‘make nice’ are useful, taking precedent over analysis paralysis. We may find more perspective through talking to others, and none too soon as long term goals need the type of attention that a good conversation will bring. When we talk and share, what seemed to be at cross-purposes finds a middle way. The enlightenment continues into 6/16, when communication supports insightful ‘a-ha’ ideas, liberated thinking and freedom from concept! No more nasty old concept, always telling me how things should be, comparing of apples to oranges! Well, maybe not enlightenment, but definitely freedom from at least one concept. (until the next one arises) Moon continues to support harmonious relationships into the evening.

6/17-6/19 Early morning may meet a spot on your work shirt but you don’t mind changing your shirt and the world is well. Yet he day doesn’t seems to understand where it’s going till mid-afternoon when Moon enters Scorpio. This weekend, we sense what we perceive as the message behind the message and this can bring up deep feelings. The feelings may be defenses against uncertainty. Utilize understanding and compassion the afternoon, evening of 6/18. Saturday evening is a good night to rent a movie, have a drink, enjoy some sense of losing your self as therapy for this so-called solid world.

6/19 wherever you’re going, make sure you get there before 1 PM when your carriage turns into a pumpkin, plans just fall apart.

6/20 especially mid-morning offers opportunity for good business interactions, make those calls now. Moon in Sagittarius is optimistic and good -natured and slightly opportunistic if the truth be told. There’s nothing wrong with that today, as kindly energy supports benefit through partnerships. This complementary shift is carried via Sun’s movement into Cancer today until 7/22. We’ve been busy communicating and relating in Gemini, now its time to pull in all those energetic linkages we’ve been so busy externalizing. There’s good reason to be a homebody; the myriad connections need to be stabilized in the feeling world. For the next month, nourishment is vital. What do we feed ourselves physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually? Is it working? Look at your energy and see where you feel off balance. This immediately points to an area in which to up the nourishment ante. I’ll let you in on one final pearl of wisdom: self-care is Cancer’s secret weapon.

* song for you who feel the 6/14 energies strongly:

I live in this country now
I’m called by this name
I speak this language
It’s not quite the same
For no other reason
Than this it’s my home
And the places i used to be
far from are gone

You’ve travelled this long
You just have to go on
Don’t even look back to see
How far you’ve come
Though your body is bending
Under the load
There is nowhere to stop
Anywhere on this road

My heart is breaking
I cannot sleep
I love a man
Who’s afraid of me
He believes if he doesn’t
Stand guard with a knife
I’ll make him my slave
For the rest of his life

I love this hour
When the tide is just turning
There will be an end
To the longing and yearning
If i can stand up
To angels and men
I’ll never get swallowed
In darkness again

-Anywhere on this road -Anywhere On This Road from The Living Road by Lhasa de Sela

*for more Pema Chodron go to

Taurus New Moon, Sunday May 8, 2005 1:45 AM PST

Taurus New Moon, Sunday May 8, 2005 1:45 AM PST

Dear Taurus,

I had a dream the other night; don’t let it confuse you, practical one. It is a good dream, with all the things you love: color, nature, beauty, companionship, food. Here it is, messy and fragmented as all good dreams are:

I am riding along the countryside, this blur of citron, vermilion blue, rolling and grassy. Hot pink blooms dot the country, a place both strange and intimately familiar. I am in a cottage farmhouse now, dancing with friends and we all begin gathering up our most valuable things, still excited with affection as we prepare for some mysterious ending, departure. I walk outside in the company of friends and look casually over my shoulder. The farmhouse is crumbling. Starting a slow disintegration, it collapses in a snakelike ripple of motion, front to back. I look up, the sky is deep midnight speckled with stars. I am with my mother in a kitchen, she is handing me eggs, which I will soon eat. I understand that these eggs are the fruits of her good karma, and while holding her eggs; my hands are empty and light. I wake up knowing I have work to do.

I begin with a dream, as a gentle assist for a sort of necessary unraveling you must experience to fully appreciate this new beginning. After spending the last few weeks in the delightful realm of the senses, continue more than ever to trust in what you taste, touch, smell, see, and hear. Now please enlist the aid of your sixth sense–to help you through dream riddles of all sorts–waking, sleeping, mine, yours or shared. Dreams unravel over the fullness of time, and if this moon cycle begins with a riddle, within it contains the well-calibrated answer just waiting for your ingenuity. Caught in the web already? Here’s another yarn I’ve spun for you.

Theseus was a Taurean hero who sailed to Athens to slay the Minotaur bull. The bull was eating Athens’ young nubile prince and princesses, think virtual springtime apocalypse. The bull lived in this elaborate labyrinth and only the most confident; bullheaded of warriors would even think of entering. Of course, that particular brand of hero never returned. As goes for all stories with happy endings, enter a woman. In exchange for passage off the island, Ariadne, daughter of King Minos, agreed to help Theseus by giving him a ball of magic thread. When placed upon the ground at the labyrinths entrance, the ball would roll and unwind of itself, leading Theseus to slay the beast and safely return. The plan works beautifully and Theseus takes off in the middle of the night leaving Ariadne, well, dissed. She has a thousand ways she could respond-she cries, kills herself, becomes a nun, remarries Dionysus– it was all a Dionysian hoax from the beginning, says the Greek chorus. But this is Ariadne’s story; let’s allow her rightful place. What is important is the value of her magic, a sort of power that hinges on a shoestring, a thread. This thread, the small magical thread connects her to solutions that surpass the riddles of the labyrinth. This is not silly shoestring logic– this is serious business. She saves an entire kingdom with a thread.

Threads are small, minute, tiny and weave together the fabric of life. Ariadne knows her wisdom lays in attention to the seemingly insignificant stirrings behind all obvious things. When like a ball of yarn she unrolls her perception to hide and seek where it leads, something magical happens- both the hero and the kingdom are saved. This is the power of knowing our own story, believing in our own self worth. Even when evidence to do so seems insubstantial or incomplete, this faithful attendance to deeper unfolding events overrides the players and circumstances that seem to hang around just for the sake of distraction and confusion. In such times, we can always restore value to the personal life by attending to the deeper needs of the situation, both another’s and ours. Honor those needs by acting on them; give these impulses toward life their rightful due. Then, by outwitting (or in spite of) our own warrior’s obvious and oblivious well-laid plans, we may mysteriously slay the beast.

Every New Moon is fertile; it is the cosmic egg of my dream, everyone’s dream that seeds every month with a new beginning, a new cycle. In the sign of Taurus exaltation, this new moon is fertile like springtime, fecund with growth. Neptune enters the scene as the planet of hazy confusion, addiction and distortion, the Bull running rampant through all of our plans. The Bull steps into the garden and there’s disintegration afoot. Is something falling apart?

With the lunation close to Venus, we want to give embodiment to something more viable for the future, something more sustainable, more satisfying, more practical and valuable. A backlash Taurean tactic may hold on to what it thinks it needs or values to the point of suffocating the life & beauty right out of it. What’s really going on? The presence of Mars and Pluto suggest that it’s about our personal expression of purpose, power in relationship & self worth, and what exactly undermines this. If you can hold the space for looking deeper, you open to a reserve of power and resolve. Here enter some magical aspects that allow for ingenious solutions, solutions for reaching beyond the script of habit, not so ingeniously acted and re-enacted. Allow yourself to plumb your personal experience, to attentively apply your imagination and intellect in a new way. What needs to be done now to plant good seeds that weave the threads together instead of splay into crazy directions? Are you working with or against your own wholeness? The risk is seeding a new cycle with the hazy confusion or self-deception of not owning your power or control in a situation. Always we can find serendipitous solutions by looking beneath appearances to our own motivations, where we need sharpening and clarifying. How we do this is the mystery of the new moon, magical with beginnings. It allows you a secret seeing to glimpse behind the veils of your own being, the key to your big dream. Arms linked with friends, glance over your shoulder and watch the collapsing house fall. You are living in a world of mystery; honor the mystery by following its thread. Outwit the beast in the face of fated fairy tales and save us all.

The planetary beat

The major event of 5/09 is Venus’ move into Gemini, preferences move from sensual indulgences of the flesh to cavorting in the playground of the mind and its infinite variations on love. Tastes and relationships become both fickle and changeable as we find ourselves willing to experiment and play while committing to none. For the next month, find your pleasure in conversation, exchange of information and changes of environment. This Venus is always ‘on’, on instant messaging, on top of the latest trend or fad and always, always ready for a witty comeback or intelligentsia to parlay. This Venus may go for a roll in the hay, but she’s really rolling you around in mind and may forget to be here now, in the body.

5/10 the energy is lively and fresh, moon in Gemini. Late morning finds you receptive and impressionable to new ideas. Go to bed early tonight, late evening loses the lightness proving too heavy for our liking.

5/11 early morning is good for important calls, moon moves into Cancer late morning thru 5/12, as we settle into self containment, looking for our own natural rhythm instead of getting caught up in the buzz. Moon in Cancer, her home sign, likes to hunker down and emotionally stabilize. But lately a certain Cancer clan has noticed this moon to highlight instability in the face of security she’s trying to create. Perhaps Moon in her own sign needs a little more attention, she says: ‘your taproots are important! Lets make sure everything’s going smoothly in the lunar seascape of emotions, home, foundations’. This instability may be due to the changing declination of Moon in Cancer and Capricorn over this year and next.

5/12 Mercury moves into Taurus. A long drawn out hmmm-This is the planet of quick on your feet in the ponderous slow moving sign of the bull. The mind has been all caught up in Aries since the beginning of March (due to retrograde) so we’re certain to notice a change. Slow down, we’re no longer running with scissor-thoughts. Have you enjoyed your keen inventiveness and fast paced thinking, or maybe it’s a relief to no longer mentally beat yourself up, martial style? Relax, now the mind is deliberate, slow and a little stubborn. Soothe mental woes by being in nature; find that it’s valuable to use all of your senses to accumulate information. No quick decisions as we let it all settle inside before reaching a conclusion. It may be hard to change minds and influence others for the next month, as exchanges touch on personal values and these run deeper than mere words allow.

5/13 Moon is out of sorts today making it hard to get routine things done until evening. Happy Friday the 13th when she moves into Leo, ready to get onto a fun weekend. There’s a nice stabilizing Sun sextile Saturn all day Friday. There may be promotions at work, or the supportive nod given from authority figures. Don’t forget to recognize your own authority, as the time is right to wield kingly or queenly power with grace and gratitude. Esteem is important right now, and we want recognition for our own unique contributions. Do Leo moon right-give mad props to your royal court! 5/14 continues a spirit of fun loving affection, breakfast is remarkably pleasant and the evening jovial and warm. An aspect perfects today that can give us insight into an entrenched situation, supplying a creative compromise at the right moment. This evening, watch the weekend move from warm to hot on 5/15.

5/15 is a day of sudden changes and interesting happenings. You will not be bored with Mars and Uranus cavorting. Think Billy Idol’s rebel yell, sudden upheavals and rebelliousness are the rule of the day. Exercise caution when driving or interacting in relationships you’ve left on simmer for too long; they will surely boil over if so provoked. Alternately, exciting new developments and rampant enthusiasms run the gamut and back. Allow yourself to follow these, within the limits safety allows.

5/16 first quarter moon in Leo feeds off yesterday’s energetic buzz. New plans, excitement and a sense of urgency all back up the desire to break free and move forward. But is there anything behind all the rough and tumble? Moon moves directly into Virgo asking for attention to the details as we question how our new revelations fit into reality, we’re either busy buttressing a situation or someone’s cold busted when it doesn’t stack up.

5/17 The morning starts with some blips and jolts but come lunchtime everyone’s amenable to the just desserts of Venus and Jupiter. Optimism and generosity sweeten up our attitudes; a little loving goes a long way today. Use this day to give unexpected gifts make or take special plans. With a beatific smile on your mischievous mug, make nice after all your acting up this weekend. 5/18 The astrological weather vane once again shifts direction, and quickly as Venus made good, she abruptly changes the plan right when you were getting to the good stuff! Fickle Venus, what turned her on yesterday, now turns her off. You show up at the airport, roses in hand, and it turns out she’s got a new favorite. Fortunately, Mercury and Uranus are on speaking terms. By talking it out, we can appreciate the discovery of our different perceptions, preferences and tastes.

The moon still in Libra 5/19, parallel to Jupiter mid afternoon and Neptune goes retrograde. Plan to take it easy tonight, let off steam by gabbing with friends, exchange stories about this week’s turbulent ride. Sip wine, sit by the sea and appreciate the beauty of the natural world as the Sun tiptoes through the last degree of the bull.

5/20 Sun moves into Gemini propelling us forward with the energy of a Mercury Mars sextile. Over the next month, basically we find we’re functioning at our best with lots of room to move. Normally with Gem, we expect more talk than walk but with Mars starting us out maybe we’re finally able to act on our own keen observations. Gem’s calling card: no boredom allowed. Expect diversity of conversation, opinions, plans and predicaments as Gemini lives for the experience of getting her hands in everything. If you’re prone to nervous mental chatter, you’re experiencing the Gemini predicament. Channel this by changing your environment or mind- when your battle cry is’ don’t fence me in’ try the sport of fencing. There’s plenty of room to move if we can use mental restlessness in the service of exploring new options. Tonight: early evening, energy is blocked or fatigued but there’s potential for a healing interaction shortly thereafter, initiating us into the healing waters of Scorpio.

5/21 Moon in Scorpio and we’re heart-sensitive, discussions evoke deep feelings and we sense the undercurrents of what is and is not said. If you’re looking for a breakthrough, find support late evening.

5/22 we’re set up for an interesting full moon lunation. Communication is obscured or distorted with Mercury square Neptune; our minds are impressionable and foggy. What is really being communicated here, what exactly are you thinking? It’s hard to know for sure when Miss Understanding comes to town. To fan the flames of Miss Thang, the presence of a Venus Mars square emphasizes communication differences and not so subtle passive aggressive behavior. This really undermines her natural facile ease. Logic holds no sway now, so stop your swings at the perfect intellectual KO and let the sea tide take him out.

New Moon Aries Solar Eclipse, Friday, April 8, 2005 1:32 PM PST

hey man
evening on the ground
and there is no one else around
so you will
blame me
blame me for the rocks and baby bones
and broken lock on our
garden wall of eden
full of spiderbites and all your lovers
we were
we were born to f*** each other
one way or another
but i’ll only lie
down by the waterside at night

– from Down by the Waterside (Lilith’s Song) Iron & Wine*

To be alive is to be burning. -N. Mailer

New Moon Aries Solar Eclipse, Friday, April 8, 2005 1:32 PM PST

We’re easily caught up, the pace of life is the quickening of beginnings. All the personal planets except Mars in cardinal signs, in the ‘getting on with things’ manifesto of Aries its easy to feel our trailblazing energy. The energy is impulsive, like a knee jerk reaction to the bondages of winter, what made it through is alive and kicking. God bless him, the pope finally left in body, but in spirit his death has renewed age-old arguments.

As the cycle unfolded from the full moon two weeks ago, Easter rose like the holy ghost, with Venus and the Sun and brought the feminine back to life. We see powerful women in the news, her tragedies and triumphs. Unfortunately, this is the state we meet her, Terry Schiavo kept artificially alive for years, with no life of her own save the machines of science, to which we owe her mechanized breathing. Nourishment is so vital to the feminine, and we meet her eating through tubes, counter to Venus’ love of food’s sensual pleasure. For Venus life without sensual pleasure is a life not worth living.

Jane Fonda just published a book ‘My Life So Far’, a self-described ‘lightening rod’ personality. She was the outspoken heroine, both Barbarella and war activist, truly a Venus in Aries type. She speaks of self-sacrifice, how she changed her self for every man she partnered with by becoming whoever he wanted her to be. She’s also still defending her anti-war stance 30 years later, some Vietnam Vets still call Hanoi Jane a traitor- for visiting and dialoguing with the ‘enemy’.

I’m reminded of Lilith, the original Eve. Completely written out of history by the Church’s secularization, her story is found in Hebrew texts, the Talmud. Lilith was Adam’s first mate, they fought all the time. She wanted equality and he disagreed. She wants to be on top some of the time, he wants her beneath him. And so, she leaves. Enter Eve as the domesticated good girl, a stepford wife accepting her place as lower than Adam’s. Eve fed Adam the apple, but it was Lilith (now the serpent according to the new bible) who gave Eve the apple. As women, we feel this story in our bones, grieving a little bit each time a woman is judged, suppressed, denied her voice or even natural life cycle. We feel Lilith’s banishment to the netherlands of the earth, understanding her choice of life without personal relationship as a sad consequence to one filled with inequalities.

Aries energy is ‘the beginning’ part of ‘in the beginning’- Arian beginnings appear straightforward and intuitively logical, the rush of spring. Straight shooter Aries so quickly forgets the road behind, the mountain climbed, and this leads to unnecessary battles & false starts. Impulse doesn’t have memory; in the rush for ‘beginning’ we may forget that each of us has a larger score card to settle. The tools may appear as worldly forms of new achievement and acquisitions, but we’re tooling around in the soil of the original garden – our agreement to the very essence of truth to self and others. This is the agreement drawn for us, before time, by the infinite. A contract beyond the life events of periodic costume changes, the obligations we’re here to make good. What is the mission you’ve been elected by us all to fulfill? If you’re growing & evolving us all, you’re shaking the tree to make good on this promise.

We sense this in the solar eclipse; part of a series of eclipses Saros 129 includes 80 eclipses spanning about 1,425 years, the last one occurring March 29, 1987. For this series, history reflects issues of secular vs. sacred power, regime changes, sexuality and procreation. Lilith’s legacy of banished identity became sexualized; what was one part of her became constellated into larger than life shaming. Remember, this ‘original sin’ was born of inequality, not lasciviousness. What happens when something essential is denied? Lilith/Eve has become all the guilt of Eden-sexually wild, untamable, and free to love whomever she pleases, not to be confused with lack of moral fiber, contrary to popular opinion. Case in point: So-called ‘Desperate Housewives’ women want to enjoy the accomplishments of housework and vibrant sexual lives. Simultaneously, perchance? Now that’s good viewing! The only desperate thing about this show is America’s starvation for some apple pie eroticism. Certainly this has nothing to do with the current moral climate of conservatism. All hail the erotic life!

Eclipses have the potential for unexpected shake-ups, beginnings and endings, the variation in intensity depends on how it aspects your natal chart. To some degree, almost all of us have begun a new phase in life, one chapter beginning, and one closing. If this is hard to discern, that’s the nature of eclipse- out of the blue happenings occur just as easily as obscuration & removals. Due to the positions of Venus & North Node with New Moon all square Saturn, in this new road you’re trailblazing, you have the potential to create great change and thus great karma aka consequence of action. Before you move ahead into that gleaming Ferrari promise of desire, look in the rearview mirror. Take stock: Yes, that’s you, gorgeous. You are in the driver’s seat and where you are now in life is a consequence of every choice you’ve made. That’s power for you alone, to make choices even when appearances dictate the circumstances. Reflect on this and give yourself, in true Arian spirit, a running head start.

4/08 The New Moon, Sun, Venus and Node in Aries square Saturn. This emphasizes the frustration and pain of relationship or financial needs right now; what you want is at odds with the reality of the situation and this is painful. Maybe someone has left the picture. Pallas Athene, the Goddess of truth-to-self faces off with Juno, Goddess of loyalty to another. This powerfully procreative eclipse impels us: ‘do something’! Turn your frustration into initiative; let yourself get caught up in a passionate scheme of your own initiative. Warning: the time is ripe for troublemaking, too. Fantasy is heightened with Mars and Neptune float with New Moon in a too good to be true trine. The movie ‘Sin City’ opens this weekend, perfect for this combination of edgy sexuality meets illusion.

The end of the weekend begins Sun square Saturn seriousness, exact 4/10 and the trend can be felt a day earlier and extend through mid-week. Sunday is a day of effort; obstacles may appear Herculean and irritating. Remember some obstacles are a matter of mindset, others are quite tangible. We may sulk or continue forward until mid afternoon throws a confusing curveball. Watch for overexertion, as you push and possibly suffer a setback. Take a break, its all enough to test the patience of a saint. Late evening, sleep restfully in the accomplishment of knowing your limitations.

4/11- 4/14 Over the next few days, strange passive-aggressive behavior is king (see 4/13). Some reprieve comes on 4/12 when Mercury goes direct for less hassles in transportation, communication, paperwork and computer snafus. An early morning glitch is just course-correction. By afternoon, we’re optimistic and clear-minded, more or less.

4/13 is a charismatic day that starts of with a potential misfire- an early morning Mars/Neptune exact conjunction. With this ambiguous and slightly off focus pair, sexual/physical energy meanders and easily finding itself in a whole lotta trouble without really knowing what happened. Mars rules cars so pay attention while driving. This energy extends backward and forward a few days. Later in the day 4/13, intensity and focus create opportunity for greater precision. Exchanges of value, financial or interpersonal, are best accomplished late evening.

4/15-16 Venus enters Taurus on a Moon in Cancer day. ‘The safety of objects’ makes us feel loved and secure– possessions of people and things provide satisfaction. For the next month, love is the art of mutual appreciation in relationships and bank accounts. The pleasures that money can buy, yes, but also the sensual abundance of nature and creature comforts like good food and company. Remember, true style, just like true appreciation of another’s essence, cannot be bought or sold. Venus in her home sign teaches us to value meaningful indulgences of the senses. What is an essential pleasure for you? We learn that by treating ourselves we enhance self-worth.

Venus provides fodder for the evening of 4/15, when we may feel emotionally tested by all we think we don’t have. Saturn on this first quarter square commits to a course of action, within limits. By the evening of 4/16 things are upbeat and chatty, carrying through Sunday 4/17, as both are a green light for fun with friends.

4/19 Sun moves into Taurus finding the collective turn toward natural resources, where to find ’em, how to keep ’em. No doubt, oil, liquid gold, continues to headline the news. Like any good Taurus, we want to use our inner resource to create wealth & substance. Now is the time to appreciate the earth with early morning nature hikes, anywhere with scenic, lush vegetation. Springtime fruits and vegetables bloom, buy from your local farmers market. Gardens beg to be sown, dirt never smelled so clean. Mother Nature makes it look so easy-so don’t forget to give gratitude on Earth day, 4/22.

4/22 moon in Libra joins Jupiter for some attitude of gratitude. Early morning generosity extends throughout the day, enhancing our relationships. The evening is sweet and soulful, perfect for enjoying music, artistic or spiritual pursuits.

On 4/23 the moon fills up with light for a full moon lunar eclipse in the sign of the Scorpion. Like the soap opera ‘Passion’, magnetism is high and relationships have potential for hopeful new developments. The light of the moon has almost reached her maximum, yet the sun crosses her path for some temporary obscurations. Stay tuned-

****From the EP release Woman King

For you with email firewalls or delicate sensibilities, I use f*** to kindly soften the 4-letter word.

Sometimes the angels are cursing gravelly-voiced men from Florida. Hallelujah! Sam Beam gives us a heartfelt tribute to rescue and revive the inner feminine- as shamed, repressed and ultimately heroic.

‘Let Love Eclipse Your Fear’ Bonus: In perfect timing, I received a solution for this New Moon’s Saturn (fear) Venus (love) conflict. Right now, I’m saying this prayer for you: Let Fear eclipse your Love no longer!

A psychology professor asks his students for their thoughts on Love and Fear. The music is Love and Fear by Morcheeba. (you’ll need flash)

Scorpio Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, Sunday, April 23, 2005 3:06 AM PST

You can’t be suspicious of a tree, or accuse a bird or a squirrel of subversion or challenge the ideology of a violet. ~Hal Borland

You can safely assume that you’ve created God in your own image when it turns out that God hates all the same people you do. Anne Lamott

Scorpio Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, Sunday, April 23, 2005 3:06 AM PST

Biting into a crisp Asian pear, a white nectarine. Smelling an exquisite tea rose. Drinking the expanse of crisp linen clouds on a perfect azure sky. Body sensation stops you. It stops everything. The mind, the ticker tape mind full of everyday anxieties and thoughts, it interrupts like a cell phone. Only better, because its communication invites all parts of your self to participate. It’s like an invitation into the present and you have no choice but to answer. Body, mind and spirit merge in a physical gestalt; limbs and senses suddenly grow little hungry baby mouths. Satisfaction is near.

The yearning of the body-mouth is Taurus’ dominion. Temptation is around every corner, Eve’s apple. What if I bit into this? What would it taste, smell, feel like? How would this enhance my world? We enter the realm of the senses for a certain kind of satisfaction, one that will give us a different appreciation of self, body and life. Don’t underestimate the sensual world; these are identity-changing experiences. A lover can initiate you into a previously dormant part of your self. A picnic in the park on a warm spring day, your favorite fruits and berries, olives and cheeses can rejuvenate and almost erase the darkest night of the soul. Enter the senses and enter the body’s deepest longing for pleasure. This isn’t polite pleasure, but the delicately mastered, magnificently designed taste buds on the tongue of God, explicitly for your pleasure, thank you. This is the realm of the body, where all conscious thought is subordinate to body power, the realms of Taurus and Scorpio.

The human fear of sensual domination is a practical evolutionary strategy. It is possible to become numbed by pleasure, by the body’s willingness to be led by desire. And this threatens the mind’s fear of being irretrievably seduced by the body’s pleasures. The mind/spirit is masculine, the body feminine. The Aries new moon solar eclipse ushered in regime changes, all of which continue to highlight struggle between body and spirit-the church chooses hard line doctrine over inclusiveness, and continues the war against the body politic of the feminine. In domestic news, a pharmacist refuses to sell the morning-after pill and religious groups start a lawsuit on his behalf. The republican attempts for Supreme Court control plays out like this: for freedom of women’s choice, against choice. The debate is so hot; the republicans want to filibuster the 200 year 60% majority rule for justice-elects. Then there’s Hanoi Jane Fonda, whom a Vietnam Vet recently spit on at her book signing, her sympathy for human life over war is still labeled anti-patriotic. The issues are volatile; the gun is still pointed at the feminine body.

Throughout our days on earth, the body symbolizes the feminine, and the feminine embodies the temptation of flesh. The word embodiment implies a taking on of qualities, the word into form. The Earth does this naturally, growing, blossoming, decaying, reclaiming. She knows that in this completely transitory experience of desire, pleasure is much more fulfilling and a lot less threatening when we give up our attachment to owning a person, a thing, a body or ideology. Wouldn’t it be great to learn from her wisdom? Attachment to anything has the potential to make the mind smaller, narrower. We could say its addictive, totally habit forming. She holds onto nothing, has all the sex she wants and ends up with more than she started. I wonder if she’s satisfied?

Here’s the deal: we sacrifice the bull. Every bull needs to stand for something and Taurus is chomping at the bit to get at this, her hooves raising all this smoke and dust. The bull wants value, quality, truth and beauty, consistency, stability. In the truest sense of the phrase she wants ‘good moral values’. But she thinks there is a sacrifice to make, a tradeoff of flesh for spirit. The inner conflict leads the bull to slaughter instead of sacrifice and the round robin goes something like this: ‘if I don’t give in to my deepest wants I suffer. I need to feel connected to the depth and richness of the sensual life. But (great commander ego mind speaking) its power to ensnare me is gnarly.’ Why is this happening? Mother Earth Taurus whispers back: Have confidence in your inherent self-worth, your ability to hold it, protect it and share it. Imagine a world exists where every life decision you make is in total congruence with your divine, deserved worth. Wow, everyone is treating one another really well, the earth is no longer crying and we all look 10 years younger! Instead, the animal mind questions your integrity, your ability to value yourself and others: Want to eat the whole box of chocolates, have fantasy come true sex with a lover, relish half a pot roast with caramelized potatoes in one sitting? Well, says the Pope clan, you’ll lose your mind- your full-belly will surely lead you to a dark alley corner fiending for your next taste of the forbidden fruit. Truth and Beauty just got in a train wreck with a Dionysian mind-orgy.

The demon lover of sensuality blocks the church’s very noble purpose. Does it make sense that Pope John Paul II was a Taurus? He so happened to highlight fundamentalist conflict with body desire very well. The bull is trying to unite all earthly creatures and things with their own natural beauty. Our duty is to take the legacy of the Pope a step further, to beautify and unite the spirit and the flesh. We’re human beings made in reflection of the Divine. This means we get to have sex with our higher self, just like the Divine does every day. So we look deep within the papal coffers of our heart and ask: where am I divided from you, my heart’s desire? What do I want but am afraid of having? What practical tool will create enough personal safety to fully accept the beauty in the truth of my body’s desires? And, an important question: do I really want what I think I do? Sometimes desire is like that-fleeting. With Taurus, what you choose to bring into your life absolutely must be substantial, safe, and enhance your personal worth. To do this rightly, you must first know you are loved. You must know the worth of both your body and spiritual desire totals nothing less than your weight in gold.

This emotional lunar eclipse stirs up emotions of desire and ambiguity. In addition to the sexual and procreative energy of the eclipse 2 weeks ago, introduce strong Mars/Neptune element. We’re not sure if desires are coming from within or without, maybe we’re unclear on the exact message, with the number of upcoming Neptune transits, this may continue through the next 2 weeks. If you’re uncertain about motivations and desires of self or another, try not to fall prey to paranoia or attacks of insecurity. In divine timing, this weekend is the celebration of Wesak, Buddha’s enlightenment. Sit in meditation under the moon and watch your thoughts and desires mix like paints, marbling, moving, separate, blending. We may be both hypersensitive and soul-felt, depending on the instrument of our heartstrings, deeply played or pulled. There’s plenty of honesty, boldly highlighting physical, sexual and joint financial questions. Although Mercury doesn’t meet its shadow point until April 30 (and we’re still somewhat under clean-up mode from retrograde period) Mercury’s direct motion finally supports clear thinking. With Pluto sesiquadrate Venus, any burr under your skin just highlights necessity for eliminating a relationship irritation. Fancy footwork relationship conundrums are in the works: but a creative yod with Jupiter, Uranus and Venus gives you footloose skills a la Kevin Bacon. It’s clearly a time to for re-negotiating relationship models, so find ways to keep your relationships growth positive, stimulating, lively and expansive. What’s your forbidden fruit? Take a bite.

4/25 & 4/26 give us a spirited sense of possibility after the renewing full moon. 4/25 morning, shake off the dreamy sleepy time and put your enthusiasms to use by putting the pedal to the metal and accomplishing something. Slow down around dinnertime. 4/26 afternoon into evening gear us up for the following day when Mercury opposes Jupiter, lift off into grand schemes of all sorts. Anticipate Mercury/Jupiter antics ahead of time so you don’t fall prey to trickster sleights of hand-sloppy planning, harried or rushed energies, spreading yourself too thin and your easy ride loses it’s ground in a foxhole. 4/27 If you find yourself with big ideas right now, you’re on the right track. Hey big talker, remember not to get too cocksure as your confidence is already on a first class flight to Austria with an expired passport in your jean pocket. But if you mind the details, all is a success. Everything already in the works- contracts, negotiations, financial arrangements and travel are all furthered. 4/28 Moon in Capricorn and we’re kissing the ground again, sans casualties. With the Sun, Venus and Moon in Earth signs, we take pleasure in material pursuits, catching up with friends and settling down a bit. 4/28 Keep the evening light as what starts out pleasantly light receives mixed signals by evening’s end when judgment wanders over to ogle the high rollers at concourse bar and finds you foot in mouth, cold busted. If you don’t know Swedish, don’t try and impress your lingual skills upon the Swedish model. We’re just not speaking the same language here, Captain. The temptation to make promises may outreach your ability to fulfill. 4/29 jet lag sets in, mid-afternoon. The body is tired, take your emergen-c and the doldrums pass. 4/29-4/30 Venus square Neptune alert: You’re completely delusional. Somehow you’ve convinced yourself you actually have a chance with the Swedish model. She’s distracted, non-committal and more taken by her martini than by you. You totally ignore the finer points of engagement, missing the crucial details in favor of the long distance relationship of your dreams. Dream is the keyword, we’re easily taken by our own fantasies and dreams and can project that onto someone or something of value. Neptune is subtle, subtle like a fox. There’s no outrunning the relationship disillusionment and possible loss in the works during this aspect. During fox mating season, human-sounding screams can be heard from the backyards of city-dwellers. Take this as a clue. If you must play with the vixen, don’t try and pet the wild animal. Watch from afar. As luck would have it, 4/29 Sun sextile Uranus, available for flashes of insight and reason. Little strokes of genius, you’re the mad scientist playing with a chemistry set and you ‘a-ha’ onto something unique. Use this day for creative change, shaking up stale routines. An imaginative adventure is much more fun and fruitful than planning the future right now. This can just as easily animate your intellectual powers as your personal magnetism. 4/30 sees the last quarter moon in Aquarius with reception to Uranus in Pisces, Neptune on Moon. Energy is shifting as Mars moves from air sign Aquarius into watery Pisces where he’ll remain until mid-June. The planet of sexual, physical energy, assertion and aggression is not so confident in Pisces. Actions can be scattershot, anger repressed or expressed inappropriately, sexual fantasies are heightened. After a spring inoculation of planets in assertive Aries, we’ll definitely see energy move from confident to laissez-faire behavior. We just don’t know how to appropriately let off steam, so it comes out messy all over the place or just sits there and bubbles. When witnessing this behavior in others know that they may not be aware of the cause of their strange emotional sessions of acting up. Likewise, you may be doing a strange dance where you’re hiding from yourself. Strategy: over the next month and a half, we’re not sure exactly where we’re headed, so any argument or volatile disruption needs sensitivity and compassion. Don’t count on a straight answer from Mars in Pisces-it’s just too confusing! Standard Rx for the Pisces bewilderment-artistry and spiritual pursuits of the non-rational. May Day, May Day, moon too close to Neptune! Sit and watch the clouds pass. Highly unlikely to pass go, so don’t count on the Swedish model to return the call. 5/02 moon on Mars wants the green light, and maybe you even fantasize about what you would do with that $200. But then you wind up at the water cooler for a drink of water and are off on another daytrip. What happened? It’s all tangential and fleeting isn’t it? 5/03 Clear the decks for consciousness. This is the day when we can do as Dr. Phil and ‘get real’. Liven up yourself, your relationships by being straightforward and true to self. Have a conversation with partnerships of all forms, re-committing to the substance of the relationship. A good day for a heart to heart, you’ll be met with receptivity because your words appear sweet and soft today, no matter that you’ve been stewing in that Mars in Pisces kettle for days. 5/04-5/05 Moon in Aries, energized and open to spontaneity for the celebrations of Cinco de Mayo. Strange, dark dreams may occur early morning 5/04. 5/05 starts us out eager and ready for anything, but by evening feels relaxed, easy and impressionable. The perfect night for sitting by the water and watching the boats pass. The Swedish model strikes back! By 5/06, 5/07 you’re back in the States when you discover all the emails sent and phone calls placed to Stockholm Vixie reached some café clerk in Lapland–and she’s sick and tired of all your crank calls. Sure, blame Mercury square Saturn for poor communication, crossed wires. Negotiations are not favored, we’re serious-minded and wrestling with a conundrum is best accomplished alone. This can lead to a pessimistic introspective couple of days, or a scholarly adventure to the library of self-realization. ‘Why did she do this to me?’ morphs into the facts of the matter. It may be hard not to spin out into unrealistic versions of reality as Neptune squares Sun on 5/07. Physically and psychically, low energy predominates right before the new moon. But Saturn helps you stick with what is right in front of your nose, by thinking practically you eventually reach a solution, even if it takes a few days to get your head together. Until then, re-imagine the story, this time with reality and all its cold hard truth as your partner, instead of conspirator.

Libra Full Moon, Friday, March 25, 2005 12:58 PM PST

Libra Full Moon, Friday, March 25, 2005 12:58 PM PST

Spring is here! The promise of Aries is eager to get on with things, yet we face the challenge of renewal. To do so, we must clear out our winter cupboards of the past, a space bigger than a bread box, to make room for new. Both forward and backward thinking are required-‘huh? Your overwrought mind asks, ‘how can I look backward to correct the future?’ Clear some mental clutter: what do I need to drop off before I can spring ahead?

Here’s mind teaser to warm you up, in honor of Spring re-newal. The Catholic Church claimed Easter holiday as the resurrection day of Christ. Wait a second, Easter is exactly 9 months before the ‘virgin’ birth-what was Mary doing? The eggs and bunnies, eggs, bunnies, eggs-hmmm. BVM (Blessed Virgin Mary) was engaged in some Goddess festivities! But of course we know that all Christian holidays are displaced lunar holidays, what other explanation is there for the strange rituals of pine trees, eggs and such accompanying each Christian holiday. All started by those sex-crazed pagan goddess worshippers who evilly picked flowers, made mad love and decorated wishing eggs, probably with pentagrams, hiding them in secret dark and mysterious locations. And so the recycled story goes. Certainly a very special place is reserved for the person or group that bears the shadow of all we can’t own.

Case in point, the sad story of Ms. Schiavo of Florida, whose anorexia damaged body, is ironically kept alive on a liquid diet for the past 13 years. The pope has issued a statement, from his sick bed nonetheless, that only God decides when it’s time to go. Maybe this was true before medical science decided to play God, keeping people around longer than their natural shelf life. In his statement, Pope says ‘God, not politicians or scientists, decide when it’s time to die’. Really?

Our inheritance of half-truths constantly dialogues with the past, into the future and back, like a Spielberg special effect. It’s as though we have a liquid Technicolor well linking our personal and cultural histories. This well contains, among secrets to our success and demise, those mysteries as revealed by how we treat our self and others. In the physical world it’s easy to see where ‘others’ do wrong, where ‘they’ blame and disown instead of including and forgiving. How we do this in our inner emotional landscape may be harder to discern. Gaze deeply into the pool of your whys and wherefores.

Saturn’s move from retrograde suggests boundaries have shifted; some emotionally bound situation, in process of re-evaluation since November, has moved. Libra moon wants proper accountability. Do your values hold water like the Libra moon, swaying to and fro, changeable to circumstance, consensus or another persons opinion? Can you hold your own? The shadow of Aries sun asks: If you take a stand- is the call to battle stronger than the pursuit of understanding what is right and true for another? Is this war cry camouflaged by shadows of past injuries and fears?

Relationships are eager for new life as Venus, Sun face off Moon and Asteroid Goddess Pallas Athene. Pallas Athene suggests a strong urge toward justice and parity, possibly a contest of intellect. If you feel an inner struggle or engage in one, know that you will not be heard if you are motivated by right or might. In the history of conflict resolution, I’m positive no one ever changed an opinion with these tactics. By nature, force creates its opposite, resistance. True wisdom doesn’t rely on over intellectualized value systems. Wisdom doesn’t rely on justification, a veiled war tactic. The proof of wisdom is in the spontaneous and warm self-knowing it creates. In true Libran fashion, this requires a capacity to receive with an open heart. It is not always available, but when it happens it is wonderful to be received from this place.

Libra full moon sees both sides of an issue, the Goddess and the Patriarchy. The resurrection of Christ is a lovely theme, so startlingly alive that it moves masses of worshippers to a spiritual passion of devotion and longing. Those who have witnessed the last moments before death have been known to say ‘there’s no one so alive as a person on his death bed’. During winter we may’ve seen people die or get ill. Spring tests of spirit are built on our ability to cross the threshold into change. Goddess Persephone is intimate with this life impulse, spending ½ of her life with her husband, Hades, in the world of the dead, the other ½ above ground during Spring and Summer.

As she rises, filled with the freshness of both death and life so does the Goddess of Easter, Oestre. The Goddesses lovingly drops off those who have finished, and blow vibrant, playful Aries wind at the backs of the brave souls ready to begin again.

The winds of change are here. Make room for new life: bring your imperfect self and graciously forgive others imperfections along the way. Remember that we’re here to understand, not be understood. Then celebrate your ability to move forward by planting your spring eggs of ideas, visions & intuitive impulses into good earth. Do as the Goddesses, procreate and play!

BONUS: the superior conjunction of Venus.

The full moon illuminates relationship values-what we’ve learned over the past 9 months and how that’s changed what we’re doing now. Venus and the Sun meet in Aries for a superior conjunction which renews all things Venusian-relationships, our emotional make-up, value-system, preferences and how we make sense of life experience. During the past nine months our approach to relationship has been spontaneous, eager and impulsive- act now, think later. We may’ve had resiliency from emotions of fear and loss, less encumbered by the past. The next nine months Venus enters the second half of her cycle, where, like the full moon, she will reflect. Relationship values are now scrutinized in a more introverted, private way. This is the face of Venus that internalizes; we may more easily ruminate over hurts or disappointments in matters of the heart, carefully aligning steps forward with a tender spring-shoot value system, thinking deeply about what we say or do ahead of time. You’ve reached a threshold in matters of the heart-what has resulted from the past 9 months is a combination of failures and successes, only you can decide where you’ve grown and what still needs work. Think back to March 2001 for recurring themes.

Pallas Athene contributes to a woman’s relationship to her father; Venus symbolizes a man’s relationship to his mother. For both, this is a potent time to look at these relationships. Women: In myth, Pallas Athene is ruled by her intellect, having sprung from the head of her father. She adopted the ideology of the father, of patriarchy, in order to assume equality with the men. What looked ‘feminist’ was actually subordination of her feminine side. Men: Venus in Aries, this is the aspect of your mother who may not have wanted to be the mother. This Venus is independent, with goals and ambitions for herself-these weren’t easy or acceptable pursuits for women of earlier generations. Maybe this Venus wanted to be playing with her lover Mars, not tied down by the myriad demands of a family.

3/26 Early morning optimism with a dash of sensitivity lightens everyone up. Midday the energy changes (did you overdo it?) as early evening starts with a temporal physical symptom or limitation that dives right into thoughts of longstanding core blockages. Pluto goes down under until beginning of September. This is the planet of the subconscious, over these months seek and ye shall find dark stirrings from the bowels of your psychic dustbin. Pay attention to your trigger spot and work inward.

3/27 Moon is in Scorpio on Easter Sunday, the day of dark chocolate bunnies. Rich, deep and intensely sweet sensations are all possible. Watch for sugar low this evening, when irritation can spoil the spoils of warm fuzzies that need to last through Monday.

3/29 -3/30 the need for re-evaluation is apparent as Mercury redux joins the Sun and brings awareness and mental activity to a situation. As the mind circles itself with possibilities and options, Venus is eager to share these with others, especially new insights into relationship. Venus is moving at her maximum velocity, meeting with Sun at 7:30 PM PST, 3/30. Your relationship awareness on speed? Maybe. This Venus is feisty. If it’s already in the works, a culmination is likely- and likely to be quite good with some energy from the Sagittarius Moon stoking the passion fires. Moon throws logs into this fire dance as we celebrate our hard won truths about relationship, and contemplate where they will next lead.

3/31. Get busy and accomplish but all before 10:30 AM. Early morning optimism wanes as Moon joins Pluto late morning and things get heavier.

4/01 begins with a last quarter moon. Like the Fool, we step into April with several backward moving planets and impetus to somehow pull it all together. This is a good day to re-prioritize projects and examine plans for any errors.

4/02, 4/03 it may seem right to put pressure on someone else, or we are the recipient, feeling stretched as someone’s self-indulgent behavior is questionable. The demands of a situation may be unrealistic or expansionary, depending on your point of view. Find it useful to question outcomes before making promises or asking for too much. By examining expectations, wishful thinking is clarified like butter. Just as the process of making Indian ghee skims the fat for the rich golden essence-what you think you’re giving up is actually a gain, clarified into buttery gold.

4/05, 4/06 Put life on cruise control, kick back and listen to words on the wind or patterns in cloud skies. If you can find the motivation, during late afternoon of 4/05, inspiration is tuned toward spontaneous activity.

4/06 is a better day for measuring feet on the ground goals to head in the clouds vision as accomplishment peaks midday and wanes into evening shift.

4/07 begins the energy of a powerful new moon eclipse 4/08. Get ready to plant your new wishes for this passionate, fiery lunation.

Pisces New Moon, Thursday, March 10, 2005, 1:10 AM PST

And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.

-Anais Nin

Pisces New Moon, Thursday, March 10, 1:10 AM PST

Where were you on 3/04 when Mercury tumbled out of Pisces long dream and announced the first call of spring? Were you asleep and dreaming or did you hear Aries ram hooves shuffling outside your door of consciousness? In the Bay Area, we could sense the change with the weather. A co-worker pinpointed the exact hour his hay fever appeared, to the tune of Mercuryís entrance into Aries. It was an instant shift when this antennae planet changed our perceptions. With parting clouds, sensations of springtime appeared: urgency, quickening, warmth in the air, on your ideas, a sudden and gradual awakening. The irritation of hay fever comes too, typical Aries style.

The Sun is in Pisces for another 10 days, things continue shifting and changing. The impetus of the New Moonís call is longing. But this is longing of Odysseus, the longing for that singular journey only you are called to make. As a Siren calls the voyage off course, so we are challenged to course-correct to the alluring dreams and goals of Pisces. Jupiter and Neptune both rule Pisces; Jupiter is the believer, knowing all things are possible. Neptune is the enchanted dark forest where things are not what they seem. You look at your reflection on the surface of water, your image dances with light and water. These are changeable impressions, color, light, water shift and move, and you realize these are perhaps more true than the solidity of your body. The longer you reflect, the less solid you feel, and the less certain you are about the nature of your well-constructed reality. A piece of music starts playing in the back of your mind, you canít get it out of your head and you really donít want to. The song is so pure and true for you, so connected to this experience of yourself right now, in fact, you feel more alive and connected to yourself than ever before. This is who I am, you think. But who are you?

The truth is you are far bigger than you. Pisces is infamous for their lives of sensory overload–existing in one body but taking on the nature of many other subjective realities all in the course of a day. Pisces copes by diffusing these experiences, blurring the lines to protect the mind from the temptation to believe & the temptation not to believe, in all of it. Jupiter watches over Pisces by offering a belief system, God or guru to protect the fragile mind from exploding all over the place in chaotic grasping. Meanwhile, Neptune lurks like a voluptuous mermaid vulture with an ethereal beauty, songs hopeful and melodic. Neptune is your Siren, a beautiful distraction with hurricane force power to crash your dreams into the rocks. The Neptune aspect of Pisces is strangely serene and benign, as the atmosphere right before a hurricane. Like Odysseus, you are on your journey and so heed the navigations of Mercury in Aries, the only clear-headed one around. Too good to be true, he says. Of course it is. You recognize the song of your demise. Meanwhile your crew has been lulled into a Neptunian coma; reality has abandoned ship.

Awaken yourself. The harbingers of reality: Saturn opposing Mars in a t-square to Jupiter. This troop contrasts dreamy visions to the hard work of staying on course. Jupiter at the helm will direct the crew to keep personal goals in focus, while Mars and Saturn are unruly crewmembers, the workhorse course-correctors. But Mars is always on sex-drive default and Saturn has a reputation for both school-marmish discipline and bad-boy duplicity. It’s a tricky proposition: we must be wary of the beautifully evil Sirens, yet allow for enchantment of the shimmering dream. Thereís a subtle difference between escapism and enchantment and we must carefully, reverently walk this threshold or risk total peril.

Venice is a sinking city, but I still dream on Venice. Ironically, the word Venice means serenity. The city knew it was sinking and so chose serenity. For Pisces, life is like this, an island of artistry, enchantment, mystery on constant verge of submersion by the great collective sea. I don’t buy real estate there, but I visit. I go to Venice in my imagination, this island of knowing. Maybe I’ll listen to the Sirens song from safely afar, dipping in for brief and ecstatic glances. Enigmatic, soulful, she re-fuels my devotion to the dreaming, to the emanation of everything.

These are the days

3/10 Possibilities are no longer potential, but tangible goals even as you watch them morph. Yet, frustration kicks in around the same time. But thereís room to move as Venus graces us with, well, grace. Saturnís cohorts remind you to honor your current commitments as overextension looms large. Responsibility is a worthwhile pursuit this evening when Saturn trines the Sun/Moon, letting us know that with careful planning and time/risk management, we can achieve some goals. Moon in Aries whispers more promise of spring in your ear into tomorrow.

3/12 Moon squares Saturn, Mars and trines Pluto all before the early afternoon. Your mood is cranky and restless but turns out to be a tour de force in emotional stamina. The evening has us settled down for the exactitude of Jupiter trine Neptune 3/14. Moon in Taurus is oriented toward the practical whilst the latter two are elusive dreamers. Mutual reception between Venus and Jupiter thru 3/22 opens us to artistic and creative pursuits. Since early March, Artists find these times exceptionally prolific & experimental.

3/14 What starts out mellow, easy even, by mid-afternoon has changed course.
This can animate you with an intensity of purpose and exacting executive abilities, or produce a heavy hand that forces your hand to the deeper demands of an issue. Venus trine Saturn suggests the solution that moves everyone forward is best accomplished by cooperation and responsibility to one another. Financial resources may need re-allocating today as we look at the bottom line of everything.

These planetary currents reverberate to 3/17. This first quarter square is busy networking in Gemini, but the environment may not be yielding the information you seek. The true issue may surface when evening brings us to our buried needs. Venus square Pluto shows up as experiences of power/lack of power in relationships, self-worth and questionable availability of resources. Combat loneliness and depression with some good Cancerian self-care. Cathartic activities heal; if feeling especially vulnerable be sensitive to your need for self-protection.

3/19 & 3/20 what a weekend! The big event of the day is Mercuryís retrograde in Aries. Mercury will retrograde in the sign of the ram until 4/12, creating extra potential and possibility for head-butting and courageous new ideas, perhaps even simultaneously. The usual instructions: communications and transportation are all subject to problems. Be careful with contracts and long-term plans made during this time period. If a plan is put into motion, it may change or fall apart by 4/12. Old friends reappear. Outstanding issues come back to haunt in an attempt toward reconciliation. However, itís a great time to tackle projects on the back burner, things youíve put off. Continuing what you’ve started and tying up the loose ends results in more mettle than muddle. Sun sextile Mars both in the last degrees of their respective signs prepare us for the burst of new energy tomorrow.

3/20 welcome spring equinox! Some of us don’t actually feel the strength and promise of 2005 until this day. Sun in Aries is the urge for life, all things in their seed potential, awaiting pollination. This is a heady fullness that doesnít quite know its power or force. Weíre renewed by this stamina, but yet unfamiliar with what it all means. Here’s an Aries suggestion: be a pioneer in anything you do.

Enter Mars into Aquarius. For the next month and a half, energy is especially focused on what doesn’t work to make way for expressions of individuality and uniqueness. Overlap with Mercury retrograde, watch out for aggrandizement of both self and others. As life is filled with contradictions, there is a subtext working here. We feel the newness but we don’t see it yet. Saturn’s got spring by the ankle, time is moving slowly as the planet changes pace to the tune of molasses.

3/21 Leo moon wants self-fulfillment in whatever form that may take, and with Saturn’s station to direct tonight, self-confidence means getting on with well-laid plans. The machinery has been in the shop all year and now the oiled gears shift and turn. This planet rules professionalism and social roles, expect some career restrictions to loosen up.

3/22 Venus enters Aries. Now we’re really cooking as the planet of relationship joins Sun and Mercury in Aries. Relationship tastes and preferences are hot and sudden, new and exciting. This Venus is about the thrill of the chase, stalking her prey to culminate in an erotic conquest. Wait; is this a relationship or a car show? Used constructively, Venus is really about taking a chance, finding the courage to love again or renew love with the fresh eyes of springtime. The thrill of this love involves risk-taking and even a little ego-stroking, vroom-vroom!

New Moon Aquarius, Tuesday, February 8, 2005 2:28 PM PST

I would love to kiss you.
-The price of kissing is your life.
Now my loving is running toward my life shouting,
What a bargain, let’s buy it!


New Moon Aquarius, Tuesday, February 8, 2005 2:28 PM PST

The astrological weather changes again, and aren’t things different from even a few weeks ago. The ancient Roman holiday of Saturnalia loosens the wool bindings at Saturn’s feet. The God of nose-to-the-grindstone loosens up. It would behoove you to perform some equally liberating ceremony, right now. Freedom is in the slightly electric air.

So, make a wish and run with it. This is a fabulous moon for dreams come true. Hope, wish and dream of Aquarius is that you use your personal wishes to better all of us. It’s no coincidence that Aquarius rules the house of hopes and dreams, and is also the sign of the humanitarian. It is true, the dreams associated with this sign always benefit all of humanity, even if the dream appears to be very personal. Your dream to live your life ‘on purpose’ has everything to do with the rest of us. Friends also play an important role with this energy. Go with any dream involving group endeavors and collaborations of like minds. The consciousness of someone else working on behalf of your dream and your dream working on behalf of others absolutely magnifies it. Your energy puts wind under everyone’s wings.

There’s a transcendent urge happening. Although Aquarius is a detached, intellectual sign, in close relationship to Neptune and Venus, you’ll find yourself not only wanting to connect your purpose to a larger vision, but feeling it. Stories of compassion, altruism send a signal to the animal brain we’ve all been listening to. ‘wake up, wake up, reality can be deconstructed!’ In the spirit of Aquarius, reality television may actually change the world. Something prompted me to do what I never do-watch a reality TV. show. A group of designers give a widowed wife and two children a new home and life. Witness the whole community of Bakersfield, CA build, create, heal not only the family, community but an entire ‘viewing audience’. The tides have turned, from Hollywood money-grubbing to whole-hearted acts of generosity and kindness. Headline: ‘Acts of Kindness Create Larger Market Reach.’ This is lovely. Aquarius comes as a water-bearer, healing and melting, cleansing and merging.

Warning: It may also be easy to space this lovely energy out. That’s Neptune for you, rubbing your belly with clever little addictions, diversions and fantasy, lulling you into total complacency. You’ve passed out in front of the tube for several days-‘huh?, transcendent change? I just want to check out.’ Wake up and smell the eucalyptus. There’s something fresh just outside your window but you have to open it.

I heard a newsbyte about a day trader’s career change. He was a millionaire by age 30. Successful by social standards, he was terribly unfulfilled. So he left urbanity, moved to Boulder, Colorado and wrote a rock opera. Now he is wildly happy. The day-trader friends now fly in to attend his unusual performances. The friends he lost in the process, uncomfortably look down at their martinis when his name is mentioned. A good friend once said, ‘there’s no higher price than the cost of freedom’. What is the cost of living someone else’s dream? The cost of not living yours? Acts of courage, insanity and social disruption encouraged here. Where we’re hard-wired to the inner critic, push the release button.

Although it sounds risky, it doesn’t feel edgy. And that’s your ‘in’, so you can take a step forward into what may normally cause you small anxiety attacks. It’s also what astrology is most excellent at providing, perfect timing to move you seamlessly, elegantly into a new beginning. This new moon offers the antidote to the usual suspects, the sidekicks of change–Fear and Distortion. The antidote is love-a soothing, melodic and transcendent song playing in the background. Iconoclasm meets a graceful prima ballerina. Be outlandish. Especially if your animal brain says: ‘-but that’s not me, I’d never do that.’ It’s a signal to loosen up & live a little.

Neptune’s love is transcendent, Venus’ love is personal, Aquarian love is visionary. The shadow of Neptune is codependence, fantasy and glamour. Hyped up fantasy is the mindset around Valentines Day. In an effort to combat the marketing sirens who want to convince you that you, your lover or love offering is imperfect, know that a more civilized society would honor your romantic longing instead of exchanging it for DeBeers billboards. Peek into Plato’s dialogues on the Nature of Love: Eros, Philia and Agape. Eros is not so much romantic physical love, but the element of ideal beauty your lover reflects in shared values and pursuits. Philia is mutual admiration, the cultivation of virtue in self and others experienced most often with friendship relationships, a priori self-love. Agape is the decidedly Aquarian ideal, containing both brotherly love and erotic passion, awe, and desire that transcends earthly cares and obstacles. This is the gaze of your lover, the mate to your soul. She is fervent, devoted and longing for reunion. Who is this faceless lover stirring in your heart, ready to marry your life’s work to everyone and everything? Name the promise you made to yourself, the dream that costs nothing less than everything-costing, in fact, all you have to spend. Buy it now. What a bargain.

Notable Dates:

2/10 Mercury in Aquarius trines Jupiter in Libra. Ease of information, the expansive mind and higher education. Communication has the potential to open new doors. Market your idea, speak your piece.

2/12 Moon in Aries, Sun and Mercury in Aquarius sextile Pluto in Sagittarius. Ride Thursday’s flow and you have the green light to do your own thing. Anything you’re doing on behalf of others has the potential for deep change, making everyone stronger. Remember that willfulness only pays if righteously applied, a light touch holds more promise than you thought. This is a good day for investments and joint ventures.

2/14 V-Day Venus in Aquarius conjunct Neptune. Dreamers, unite! Love, poetry, fantasy, mystery, intrigue. This day has all the makings of an epic romance. Actually, does this stuff ever really happen? Well, today maybe for a Leo, Libra or Aquarius. If you’re not busy feeding your lover grapes and wine conversing on Plato’s love: ‘ I think Eros is underrated-‘ take it to the movies. It’s a perfect day to bliss out & experience love, in all her emanations-from personal to divine.

2/15 First quarter moon in Taurus, Mars sextile Uranus. Get some spunk under you. If you’re feeling lethargy, blame it on your love hangover. First quarter moon we need to ‘do something’. Moon in Taurus is more placid than most, preferring security and stability to action. But Mars and Uranus give you some pep in your step.

2/15 Moon in Gemini, Mercury into Pisces. It’s a mental day, truly. Mercury moves into Pisces for the next month and this isn’t a strong position for the mind. Details get mixed up, facts have the chance for getting thrown in with the laundry, one red shirt turning everything pink. Forgive yourself for your spaciness and make space instead. Shut down the monkey mind and give the mind a chair on a beach. Suggestion: use this time for mental rest and non-rational creative pursuits of fantasy, spirituality and imagination.

2/17 Venus in Aquarius trine Jupiter in Libra. Okay love muffin, shower the people you love with love. Express it, give it-to someone specific or no one specific. Catch the eye of a stranger and smile. Actually talk to the cashier at your grocery store. Ask them how they are doing. If you’re surprised to feel the love bouncing back at you, contemplate your surprise. Why not do this all the time? Generosity is the absolute cure to loneliness.

2/18 Moon in Cancer, Sun in Pisces. Sun moves into imaginative, nebulous Pisces. Artists love this energy– we all have a heightened ability to drink the ethers of the cosmos with thirsty abandon. Our sense of purpose is primarily felt in the moment rather than rationalized. Sensitive, subtle and intuitive energy predominate the Sun’s trip through Pisces. This is the sign of the believer. Don’t expect a Pisces to know exactly where they’re going and why. They ‘just know’ that they’re on the right track and when to get off. Use the lesson of Pisces: the gift of knowing. You don’t have to justify or explain anything. Just be.

2/19 Mercury in Pisces conjunct Uranus. Carry a pen or tape recorder to jot down electric impulses and ideas. Put on your secret decoder ring.

2/21 Moon in Leo, Venus and Mercury in Aquarius sextile Pluto in Sagittarius. Moon in Leo highlights pride and where we exercise our creative powers. Venus and Pluto want you to see below the surface of things, making sure everyone is counted. Merge the energies by using integrity and truthfulness in all relationships.

New Moon Capricorn, Monday, January 10, 2005 4:03 AM PST

New Moon Capricorn, Monday, January 10, 2005 4:03 AM PST

What a New Year! I am incredibly saddened by the devastation in Southeast Asia. When we are becoming increasingly sensitized to the world’s suffering, how do we make meaning of the suffering? The earth hangs like an earring in the universe, so delicate and small. We often forget that we serve the earth, that she is a living, breathing thing- she absorbs all of it so quietly and gracefully. Until she has been pushed too far, & like the organism she is, breaks down. Astrologer Malvin Artley points out that as with any organism, when she is stressed, the weakest link crumbles the castle. One perspective: we look at southeast Asia’s third world conditions and compare to it’s wealthier neighbors. Many of the islands hit are popular resort destinations, playgrounds of the wealthier nations of the world. History continues to bare out the natural law -where disparity exists, nature corrects. Nature’s law only cares that we live in equilibrium.

Sun and Moon in Capricorn rebalance the scales, earning ruling planet Saturn’s title as ‘lord of karma’. Saturn/Karma is not punitive, it is simple cause and effect. ‘Karma’ is elusive to the human mind because we cannot understand how tragedy is corrective and good for anyone. What if we could really grasp this truth-that our personal tragedies and triumphs are all apart of this great cosmic web? We are indeed balancing the scales for one another, living out our great-grandmother’s karma, and a resort worker in Phukhet just as we live our own. How can our mind possibly hold the responsibility for something of this magnitude? A tragedy of this size asks us to be seized by a magnanimous grace, a kind born of honoring our interdependence & responsibility to one another.

Nature’s laws, like God, may be equally mysterious and intimately knowable. The Earth is a body, like your physical one. She is impressionable to your word & intention. Intentionality is key; where we direct our attention is where we reap results. In the sign of ‘put your money where your mouth is’ New Moon in Capricorn intentions want you to merge who you say you are with what you do in the world. With Capricorn it’s actually that black and white, that simple.

The first new moon of the year, I’ll venture to say that January 10 will feel more like the start of the New Year than 12/31. There’s plenty of energy for new beginnings, the impressions of our words and actions sink into the wet cement of the universal mind. Intention has weight, heft; work on where you want to be.

The new doesn’t happen without growing pains: the new Moon is a close approximation to a t-square: Moon and Sun conjunct Chiron, old wounds-we are beginning anew with wisdom in the ground of past pains– opposing Saturn, we feel the place where goals meet limitations and restrictions. This opposition reminds me of the re-building process, as though we’re walking through a foundation laid bare with broken pipes & tears, architectural plans in hand. But the t-square in a new Moon is an active energy, capable of great accomplishment, full of motion and resolve. The point of tension is held at an apex by Jupiter– we’re having crisis of faith, doubts. As Jupiter holds the tension, he also holds the solution. Jupiter is the planet of goodwill, faith, the almighty, miracles; Libra is love. Here we have visionary love, graceful generosity and expanded capacity to be a bigger presence in relationships. Like the world stage, are previously unimagined relationships where we renew our faith and find blessing? We’ve already seen the bright response of generosity in response to tragedy, each nation monetarily competing for goodwill.

Many people have been presented with new or expanded relationships the latter half of the past year, a promise of Jupiter’s passage through Libra. Yet just this past week, some notable/celebrity relationships ended. As we steward our relationships, our interdependence on the earth and one another, it’s good to get clear on just what our obligations are to self and to others. This New Year/Moon we’ll be asked to be honest with ourselves-not fudge the answers to the important questions. When we give to another we do so with integrity and truthfulness to self, not making promises we can’t keep. If we compromise self for another, we find that our foundation will crumble.

A suggestion of this New Year chart is that with a correction of attitudes and beliefs- that by dropping some of the baggage of the past, we are in a position with enough to give. Develop some New Moon/Year epiphanies designed to get rid of anything that limits your freedom. Try these on:

I question the power of the past to control my future dreams.

I don’t mistake circumstance for the reality of the infinite.

I see the previously solid nature of my perceptions and identity as fluid and expansive.

To be certain, we are feeling both a contraction and expansion –two forces, when paired, negate forward movement. If fear is present; look squarely in those cold beady eyes knowing that fear only gains power if we do what it wants us to. Expansion is scary from a place of contraction & need. Jupiter exposes us to the place we need to incorporate an attitude of abundance, while Chiron encourages us to own our wisdom by caring for our Achilles heel, our loveable limitations. We learn to be both broken and whole. Venus in Capricorn is applying a sweet sextile to Uranus, giving us a boost of ‘practical optimism’. If we show up for self, the things and people we love will, too. There we learn to trade the same old stuff for enlightened change.

For a taster, here are a few more bigger picture notes for 2005. Although it’s started out awnry, the year will be more visionary than last. Through mid-2005 we’ll have an inconjunct between Saturn and Pluto. We can expect to see more seismic creaks and groans as old structures are ruthlessly assessed for their stability. Consider any creative restructuring like preventative medicine. The news and media continue to play a role in exposing what boil needs lancing. On an upbeat note, Jupiter and Neptune will be waxing sextile through mid-August. This brings an influx of inspiration and hope into the overall collective mood. We could all use a little uplifting news and it looks like we’ll all have an ease of access to inspiration and the messages of encouragement we need. Meanwhile Uranus in Pisces and Neptune in Aquarius continue to mutually receive one another – wherever we need to show up as revolutionary and idealistic change makers, we are supported. Shift will happen mid-summer when Saturn moves into Leo, and Jupiter moves into Scorpio. Hopefully, Saturn’s move means less overall pressure on the U.S. economy, since the U.S. is a Cancer nation and Saturn leaves Cancer by mid- July. Around the same time Jupiter enters Scorpio with a mutual reception to Pluto in Sagittarius, encouraging us to dig deeper for resources. Jupiter will be the megaphone for hidden treasure (including those who ‘hide’ their financial dealings) with a possibility for financial boons and sudden influx of money. This will also highlight merging of finances and we’ll all want to get clear on to whom we’re financially partnered or indebted.

In the day by day, 1/10 Mercury and Venus in Capricorn continue to travel together through the full moon. This lends credibility and polish to our speech and social interactions. It also may lend a make it or break it quality to relationships-maybe it’s not time for the bottom line– listen to your intuition. It’s a great time to be writing, expressing yourself creatively or artistically in some tangible way.

1/13 is a day when we may be stopped by the reality police for an error we’ve neglected, a parking ticket unpaid. This isn’t an easy for anyone, Saturn opposing Sun dampens spirits and puts noses to the grindstone. Don’t mess with authority here as you’re sure to be called out on all the places you’re weak. This influence is felt for a few days before and after, yet these days too shall pass, so try and take it easy on you. The evening wants to relieve your burden and give you new ideas and approaches. Venus sextiles Uranus; maybe you call a friend and get a different take on things. Venus and Mercury join and both sextile Uranus on 1/14– introducing our minds & relationships to new possibilities and outcomes. Open yourself to radical ideas and people that you might not normally consider and you’ll put yourself in a great position for receiving new life energy to put the swing back in your step. Moon in Aries supports risk taking, wanting you garner your courage and rally around your cause with self-motivated enthusiasm. As Mars sextiles Neptune, a gentler approach is required as energy simultaneously wanes and wants expression. The first quarter moon on 1/16 is all about action, and partners with the node in a square that may fan desires and aggression toward getting it- whatever ‘it’ is. The moons nodes are enigmatic, often out of the blue providing timing and propulsion to a previously laid plan. Since this moon is already a fiery girl ready to take the next step, this could mean a commitment to a new enterprise. In natal astrology, the north node joined to the moon could be a literal joining to a woman of maternal nature, children or a home.

Mercury sextiles Neptune on 1/19 to the tune of a Gemini moon. Sun moves into Aquarius. Communication may be unclear or clumsy, yet receive moments of mystical communication. Messages are spoken in tongues, but attune your inner ear for the message. As the sun moves into Aquarius for the next month, we have the capacity to envision what needs to come next. Sun in Capricorn can naysay the New Year’s wishes away and Aquarius is the solution. In affect until 2/18, our focus turns re-visionary. How do we want things to change and what needs to stay the same? Rebelliousness around questions of conformity/authority plays out as we bounce new ideas off of what isn’t working. This is the master deconstructionist who gleefully cuts away anything and anyone that impedes progress. Nervous systems may be more tightly wound as pragmatism makes room for change we look at the good of humanity, the whole organism as we think about new approaches to satisfying our personal will and of others.

1/21 Venus in Capricorn inconjunct Neptune in Aquarius, Mars in Sagittarius sextiles Jupiter in Libra. Idealism is high, pleasures & relationships aren’t as satisfying as we’d like or maybe it’s our expectations that need checking. The promise is tantalizing though and Jupiter wants to deliver unto us some new enthusiasms. Energies are uplifted and open, apply a little optimism to your efforts & find yourself infused with sense of purpose. If you’ve been feeling like a girly man, go to the gym, pump iron with this ego/energy boosting aspect. Don’t overdo it. The next day, 1/22 Mercury in Capricorn squares Jupiter in Libra. The planet of movement, mind & communication squares the planet of expansion- take care to not take on too much or you may find yourself dissipated. This could lead to too many thoughts, paperwork or errands. Prioritize what you need to get done. There’s always a danger of overextension, over inflation with a Jupiter square. Think back to 1/7 when Jupiter squared Sun, a few too many cooks in the kitchen. Follow this with a Venus square Jupiter on 1/24. We all need the occasional indulgence; this may be one of those days when you just have to let it all hang out. A tough day, let it go tonight by giving yourself a sweet treat that doesn’t break the diet. Send the people you love a little token of affection. Everyone could use some love right now– to put yourself in a position to receive, remember the law of the universe: give and you shall receive. With an open hand, let a little go to get something back.

Full Moon Cancer, Sunday, December 26, 2004 7:06 AM PST

I had been hungry all the years;
my noon had come, to dine;
I, trembling, drew the table near, and touched the curious wine.
‘T was this on tables I had seen,
when turning, hungry, lone,
I looked in windows,for the wealth
I could not hope to own.
I did not know the ample bread,
‘T was so unlike the crumb
The birds and I had often shared
In Nature’s dining-room.
The plenty hurt me, ’twas so new, —
Myself felt ill and odd,
As berry of a mountain bush
Transplanted to the road.
Nor was I hungry; so I found
That hunger was a way
Of persons outside windows,
The entering takes away.

­‘Hunger’, Emily Dickinson

Full Moon Cancer, Sunday, December 26, 2004 7:06 AM PST

Passing the longest night of the year in the blink of an eye, here we are with the days now slowly increasing in light, so slow that we don’t notice the change. Time slows down, all but stopping. Time moves in cycles, we feel this now, remembering when the summer days were long and when there was hope in our hearts. Where has it gone? Will there be light again? For some of us, this time of year offers space for reflection. The darkness brings comfort and room for renewal, we let it cloak our days like a big woolen cape, dropping our hoods gratefully for the brief moments of sunshine.

Sun in Capricorn is Father Time, chronos and kairos time. Chronos time is the clock time we’ve created to structure our days; this time was a manmade creation–like the railroad transportation system which created the time zones allowing us to organize our time on earth. Kairos time is our circadian rhythm, not just a physiological clock but an organic, moving continuum. Our mind knows chronos time, but our body/mind knows kairos time. This inner knowing tells us what stage of the continuum we’re in right now. Are we beginning, synthesizing, gathering, sustaining, harvesting, ending, dissolving? Sun in Capricorn looks through these evaluatory dark glasses, only picking up the light and dark, the essential view. We arrive at the end of the tunnel of winter with a clearer understanding of where we’ve come from, who we are now and where we’re going.

Like old Ebenezer Scrooge, uncompromising Capricorn energy will overlook nuance and rosy sunsets for outcome, product, the bottom line. This may be a necessary point of view; we need the stark landscape to re-inspire our new-year dreams. We need to face down our demons of the past and hopes for the future in the dead of night. Melancholy, sadness and reflection on days of yore lend themselves nicely to this process. Everything seems to have an air of finality about it; our dreams may feel terribly earthbound with restrictions and limitations. Know it’s natural to feel this way right now.

Christmas materialism has just scratched at our door like a hungry cat. The mewing would have you think this cat hasn’t eaten in years. The mewing cat is calling out the contrast of what we’ve yet to achieve against all we have. This hard reality can be disheartening; but Capricorn teaches that the exact place our heart hardens, there exists the fatal flaw of our hopes and dreams. Is there a hard place in your heart, the place where that bitter pill you keep swallowing becomes jagged edged, wounding the soft, beating flesh? Your heart is listening to that story.

The challenge of Capricorn is to keep tender, to keep climbing the mountain, long view in sight while honestly assessing what is and is not working.

Full moon in Cancer is a call to balance, to not neglect the heart for the ‘reality bites’ soundtrack. What nurtures and sustains the heart on this long journey through the dead of winter? It is nourishing to have a good home, supportive and nurturing relationship, family, rooted ness, tradition. It is nourishing to have your basic emotional and physical needs met.

The heart needs the practicality of Capricorn, the realism of Capricorn needs the hearth-flame, a rooted ness of heart. This is the inner knowing that we all truly live- in the deepest sense of the word, in the heart. No matter what we build in the world, the heart is the home, the place where we know how to allow our self to fearlessly release into the spring, summer, autumn, fall of life. A well-nourished heart is life-support at all the right moments. An injured heart falters and we end up hungry. When we ‘keep the home fires burning’ we give ourselves and others a sense of place, belonging and interconnection.

This full moon, appreciate the importance of your heart needs. The fulfillment of these basic needs animates life. It’s the difference between having a house or making a home in the world.

12/26 Full Moon day Saturn still opposes Chiron, exact. All year we’ve had the opportunity to heal relationship wounds and end those not working. Separation and reconciliation are themes. If this sounds familiar, by now you will know on which side of the fence you stand. If your story grew a shell around your heart, it may be thin and fragile as an eggshell but strong enough to keep both the bogeyman and the dream away. Put the wind back under your sails with a trio of optimism; Mercury, Venus and Mars in Sagittarius give us all the energy to push on. Like buoys in the sea of life, we are tossed about but always stay above water.

Our mental outlook is upbeat and facing-future and sextiling Neptune, idealistic and seduced into sugar plum fantasies. Mercury travels close to Venus, the people we have around us mirror our own inner attitude right now—they are encouraging and enthusiastic, warming our hearts despite the winter chill. Mars has just entered Sagittarius, leaving powerhouse Scorpio where our energy had a lot of focused staying power and we were up to the task. For the next 6 weeks in Sag, physical energy is easily dispersed among many things, with the potential for overextension. If you have the tendency, take care not to over commit.

12/27 Moon in Cancer, Venus sextile Neptune and we’re lost in a daydream of pleasure. Sit by the fire and meditate on all the Christmas gifts you’ve accumulated. 12/28 Mercury and Venus join exactly on a Moon in Leo day.

Friends are gabby and dramatic; we talk about travel, journeying and making future plans. The planet of information gathering joins the planet of what makes-me-happy in the sign of hopes and visions makes this an ideal day for gathering your resolutions ‘round.

12/29-12/30 It’s all in the game of love. Venus and Jupiter make beautiful music together in a mutual reception. Venus loves Jupiter and Jupiter loves Venus to be sure. Relationships experience a cosmic bear hug and we’re in love again. In the pinball game of love/life, you have just been given 50,000 extra points to spend as you please. This gamey Venus is ready to take a chance, and Jupiter is happy to oblige. How will you spend your windfall? Do not miss out on this aspect! Perform some planetary magic by putting yourself in a position where the ‘pleasure odds’ are in your favor.

With Jupiter, is there a place you want to go, a dream you want to live out, right now? Jupiter is the planet of travel, teachers and higher learning: long voyages of the mind and body are favored. Spiritual pilgrimages & journeys with heart invigorate and inspire. Mercury sextiles Jupiter making 12/30 It’s a good day for travel and big picture thinking– like marketing.

One major cautionary note for this day and it’s a biggie. Mars squares Uranus, always a volatile and dangerous pair. Mars newly in Sag may be overeager and careless—this is a problem for Mars because among others he rules cars, sharp instruments, firearms. Uranus always means sudden changes of events and disruption. Unfortunately, the potential for violence and destruction is energetically supported. If you’re traveling by car this day, you cannot be too careful. This aspect is exact in the late evening (PST); try to get where you’re going by then.

Clear skies for 12/31 New Year’s Eve. Sober moon in Virgo and festivities may be atypically restrained, making a quiet eve more attractive. Moon trine Sun in earth signs make us more concerned about comfort and physical pleasure than the get-up and go. Virgo moon doesn’t like excess or overindulgence so beware of too much drink; the body will feel the consequences. Virgo energy continues through 1/01. Inward and reflective, we stand at the threshold of another year, seeing both potential and potential faults. In the evening, Moon sextiles Saturn and we find the commitment to do what it takes.

1/02-1/03 last quarter square, Moon in Libra. Venus and Pluto conjunct, Sun inconjunct Neptune. A now pensive Venus has the potential for bringing up relationship issues. If a new perspective or change in mind comes up, don’t be surprised—it’s been in the works. Heavy handed, yes, but brutally honest. Sun inconjuncts Neptune asking for dissolution of a stubborn stance, perfectly timed for this Venus who demands sacrifice.

1/04 Moon in Scorpio, Mercury on Pluto and it’s more of the same. Thanks to retrograde Mercury, this first took place 11/19, 12/07 and now finally 1/04. This is the mind-purge. Obsessions, grudges, resentments—all the ugly and destructive thoughts you hold onto hold you back. Who’s in control here?

The mental attitude is dark and tenacious. This final pass means it’s finally time to let go. Things won’t move forward without dropping the baggage. Look to the last New Moon’s newsletter for guidance. Still in effect, 1/05 be sensitive to others as Venus is quincunxed by Saturn. Relationships require compromise, feel the consequences for better or worse.

1/06 Moon finally moves into Sagittarius in the evening, moods lighten up a little and we can begin to unwind. 1/07 Sun in Capricorn square Jupiter in Libra. This may be the pressure release we’ve been searching for, but we may want more than we can actually handle or afford. An authority figure or the reality police have the potential to spoil your fun. Appease the planetary gods by asking for a side of ‘a little bit less’ with your order of ‘more’.

1/09 Venus and Mercury move into Capricorn, Moon in Capricorn. Venus in Capricorn is the ultimate millionaire’s wife- she looks for status and security in relationship, and so do we during the tour de Capricorn till 2/02. Traditionally, Venus is not so happy in Capricorn. On her own, Venus is sociable, sharing and flirtatious. In Capricorn she doesn’t socialize, she networks; when she shares she is making a mental tally of give and take; she doesn’t flirt, she is sizing you up for marriage material. Are you stable, successful, financially established? We may find ourselves and others concerned with social acceptance, status and prestige. Yes, if we can hold it in our hand and in front of others, it has weight and worth.

Mercury is right there beside her, so we have agreement between the head and our desires. If only there was a Howard Hughes for every girl.

New Moon Sagittarius, Saturday, December 11, 2004 5:29 PM PST

Come, come, whoever you are, this caravan has no despair. Even though you have broken your vows perhaps ten thousand times
Still, come again, come, whoever you are, Whoever you are, come. Wanderer, worshipper, lover of leaving, come!

New Moon Sagittarius, Saturday, December 11, 2004 5:29 PM PST

A second lunation for Sagittarius, another opportunity to cultivate the seeker. The full moon illumined the inkling of a seed something. We read the lay of the land with its many paths and directions. The river whispered your name, the bending tree told you which direction to best follow your life destination. Your vision was broad, and the particulars needed focus-,it was just beginning. The full moon promised new roads in the backyard of our familiar. Hopefully we discovered some. Sagittarius wants us to reach further, to envision outlandish possibility. This is the searcher, seeker, preacher, teacher, poet-philosopher, mystic & magician in you. Looking for the purpose in all things, this is where we weave context and meaning. To the mystics, the mundane of ordinary life events are like puzzle pieces falling into a larger cosmic web. This new moon wants us to drop the baggage off on the way.

The timing of this lunation seems especially relevant to the new paradigms we’re now living. There have been big shifts this fall; many people have been catapulted into new realities. These changes were subtly announced with elegant planetary patterns, long awaited breakthroughs happened almost seamlessly, like a knife through butter. All your surrender, work, your patient waiting for life, finally softened and allowed room for new. If you showed up to the moment, the effects produced profound results: healings, endings & beginnings. The Divine blew gentle kisses into your ear. For Sagittarius, life is magic, the universe pulsing with color and new experience. The visionary in us lives for expansion. As we get ready to expand, there is clean up work.

The thinker, Mercury the mind, has been stressed. Mercury is moving backwards and has for the 2nd time joined with Pluto, the planet of ‘all that you can’t leave behind’. You may find yourself circling in loops of emotional memory; jealousy, resentment, bitterness, fear, desire…name your injury, the restless and fixed energy of the mind knows the difference between where you want to be and where you are. The mind is thinking with your gut, and your gut has a list of injuries longer than Santa’s. A repeating aspect, you may’ve reached your edge more than once through the past month; this is the phone call you avoid, the phone ringing off the hook. This is the caller asking for a past due invoice. What is it you need to finally stop thinking or believing? You hunger for change and expansion like the roaming mystic/gypsy/poet traveler you are. The urge to expand is countered by an initial contraction. A priori to the new, we must be willing to get deep into the nitty- gritty of our own beliefs, the root cellar of mind.

Imagine a deep forest, dark and still. The landscape pulses waves of dense black-green. You find your story beyond the stillness, where redwood trees begin to look human. Did they just speak & move? Senses so alive, you can taste the rich and thick smells, primordial, earthy. Smell something rotten and fresh alive. This is the mind, fertile and powerful. The mind knows the stories of humanity since the beginning of time. A million voices: tell, untell, remember, forget, relive, release. Your story holds a very powerful connection to the timeless and your very personal beliefs.

Leaning into our personal story may take the rest of our lives. But here we are in the sign of the visionary, at the edge of deep inner space. With Pluto, Venus and Mars in Scorpio, all that we can’t leave behind is our hidden richness, our wealth of energy. It’s all bound up down there like a magical kundalini charging our creativity and desires with raw funky stuff.

Let it bubble up. Investigate the story. Chances are, much has changed since the song first began. Have you noticed? Life has given you so much, even through the darkness of injury and pain. Pay in kind by relinquishing a little piece of the woundedness. With a gentle touch in the right spot, universes shift, realities folding like pudding batter. Find a small way to give up the old story, let obsession be replaced by a new expansionary expression.

To bridge the inner world to the outer- this isn’t a New Moon you’ll want to do alone, or spend doing the same old thing. Sagittarius lives for the open road—take a day trip! Visit someplace special to you, a teacher or church you haven’t been in awhile. Experiment with new perspectives, dialogue. Take in points of view on the outside as food for growth.


Venus in Scorpio has just left a sextile to Chiron (12/10) and applies a trine to Saturn on Monday. This is soft energy for intense times. Kindness in relationship proves healing. The urge to prematurely act out is countered by awareness of the others emotional, physical limits. Much has been learned through Venus’ tour with Mars the past few weeks; the inner and outer tantrums were just as passionate as the sex. After all the hiss and spit, this is the place where we take what we’ve learned and apply with care.

12/12 Mercury sextile Jupiter, Moon in Capricorn. Take your trip this day, talk to friends, your mind is opened and receptive to information. Mercury is sitting between Jupiter and Neptune for some creative inspiration. The imagination may be rich right now and the perceptual field dense with possibility. Use fantasy, travel, movies, art to give you a lift. Not too head in the clouds, down to earth moon leans toward practical concerns, money, time, effort spent & how our plans fit in the overall scheme of things.

12/14 Moon into Aquarius, Mercury sextile Neptune. The mood is a little experimental and imaginative. Shake it up by doing something out of the ordinary. Eat some squid ink pasta while composing esoteric poetry from your bathtub.

12/16 Venus moves into Sagittarius, shifting social preferences, interactions and tastes from close encounters of the dominatrix kind to a little bit of everything. This is Venus, International Style, with a catch-me-if-you-can attitude that leaves us all very non-committal, but always wanting more. I’ll take one of …everything, please. The marketers for last minute Christmas Shopping love this Venus. Moon in Pisces shape shifts seamlessly.

12/18 First Quarter Moon in Pisces swims around what she wants to do. Impressionable and vacillating, we dive right in to a Moon in Aries that afternoon. Regardless of what’s unclear, we move forward with determination. Moon trines Venus in fire signs, take this Saturday night to the streets and enjoy natural spontaneity and enthusiasm. All fired up for 12/19 when Venus does an about face to Uranus. Someone’s cranky and looking for attention; we find it difficult to reconcile issues of freedom in relationship. Too much or too little, we’re looking at how to get the best of both worlds. Jupiter in Libra andVenus in Sagittarius behold one another in mutual reception. This is like the Goddess of Love receiving the benefits of Fortuna. Whew, a planetary agreement saves the day! For now, and the next month or so it is possible to blend both freedom and relationship. This is also a great aspect for getting those last minute Christmas gifts—your tastes may be unusual or you may find a surprise. Chances are you’ll like what you find.

Mercury goes direct today, meaning green lights, go, the gate has been lifted. Now you can put into action those decisions and purchases, contracts you’ve been holding at bay. Isn’t it nice to have a little more positive feedback from the world? No more round robin on all the endless details, persnickety people and mechanical breakdowns. Mars trine Saturn is a steady hand guiding our energy in the right direction.

12/21 Sun moves from Sagittarius into Capricorn, Moon in Taurus. This is the winter solstice, when the night is the longest. The good news: from now on we get more daylight, not less. Capricorn energy is practical, efficient and focused on sustaining material and social resources; Moon in Taurus emphasizes this.

Tune into Capricorn by thinking of your prairie ancestors at this time of year in the cold, dead of winter. They had canned, dried food, chopped wood from the summer and fall so there would be food on the table, warmth in the house. This is a time of year when resources have always been harder to find- we can easily find ourselves in black or white thinking, focused on the bottom line. Look at your sadness or melancholy through the world lens of this phenomenon and it becomes bearable by connecting you to life.

12/24 Sun sextiles Uranus, Moon in Gemini. Throw a Christmas Eve mixer. This is a social day perfect for sleigh-bells ringing, are you listening… All good spirits are optimistic, and facing forward. The inner revolutionary nudges the Scrooge naysayer away.

New Moon Sagittarius poetry/wisdom offering to the Teacher within:

If we can dream it up, we can dream it down. -Rev Ike
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