As someone with a very un mainstream career, when people ask what I do for a living, what I call myself (at this point either: writer, astrologer or health coach), sadly, is determined by what is most likely to merit the least amount of judgment from others. Being so firmly planted “outside the system” has put me in the position of getting a bird’s eye view about what and who people, and our world, values — and what I’ve learned is painful. While I have followed purposeful calling(s) that allow me to offer my gifts to the world and they reflect my values, over and over I revisit the fact that my values and the mainstream’s values are not the same. I often learn this through that universal form of valuation: money. Read more
One of the more profound commitments to myself that I’ve made this year is to slow down. Why? I realised I was no longer enjoying myself. It wasn’t for lack of opportunity for fun, but that the pace I thought was natural for me, busy, striving, accomplishing, wasn’t, and it wasn’t conducive to pleasure, either.
Give me a day to myself and I’d pack so much into it that I’d forget to enjoy myself. The problem with this way of being is, the better part of pleasure and happiness is relaxation, and relaxation has an easy pace. This inability to slow down not only caused my serotonin to dip…it even trickled down into the most intimate parts of my life – my sex life. Dear reader, my ability to enjoy sexual intimacy stopped. Even with all the right elements in place (atmosphere, mood, well rested-ness) orgasm can be an exceedingly delicate, mysterious feat for any woman, but without truly and deeply slowing down, making the space and time to calm down and be present to the body and senses, that ultimate surrender is elusive. Read more
Awh Gemini, baby. I love me some Gemini, but these past 18 months with Gemini South Node have been… confusing, to say the least. Gemini revels in opinion, information, and the shadow side (which the South Node represents) dissipates itself with too much talking and thinking, not enough consideration before action, and too many ideas lacking big picture perspective. Read more
My grandmother’s house has a certain smell. I’ve never identified it as say Chanel no. 5, which she had on her dressing table, yet it is just as much a signature scent. A combination of lilly of the valley, cedar and (likely) moth balls, every time I walked into her house, this soothing scent was like baker’s vanilla to my soul putting me at ease. When she died, I thought she would take this signature scent with her, but when I went back to her house, which had been sitting there empty since she died a year ago this past January, the painful final memories I have of her fighting her death with every ounce of life force she had left (which wasn’t much by then) were erased by that glorious perfume, the same as I remembered. I loved her; I loved her smell for the physical, visceral way it brought her right back to me.
My grandmother had a Taurus Moon. Taurus is the sign of the Bull. Emotionally stubborn, like Bull, she obstinately refused to face many things in life (she was an Aries, too). But she instantly put anyone at ease with her simple presence, easygoing nature, and her instinct toward material security, comfort and well-being. Read more
Cardinal energy, courtesy of transiting Saturn, Uranus and Pluto in Libra, Aries and Capricorn respectively, has been speedy. Remember the movie ‘Speed’? Speed’s plot was a moving bus, a bomb, and the only way to keep it from detonating was to keep that bus moving. That’s the logic of cardinal energy, quick to respond, act and react (the bomb could go off at any time but if we keep moving, it won’t). When the pervasive feeling of ‘initiate, act, react’ combines with an urgent need or desire to do something different, life can feel like an emergency and yet the word emergency suggests emergence – we are emerging in a whole new way. Just in time, Taurus Full Moon deliberately turns down the volume, moderating our speed.
This Taurus Full Moon supports being with your own natural pace, which can prove difficult for those of us who “can’t sit still” and “need to get things done.” Those of this ilk usually fail to see the value in our own natural pace, which probably also means we can more easily burn out, generally, or, if we are in a period of emergence and we act or make decisions to change our lives too soon, we may actually delay our growth and have to circuitously repeat the steps we could have done the first time. Despite all the poker hot emergencies/emergences during these difficult times, it’s vital to remember the demanding outer planets move very slowly and what we now need (& over the next few years) is sustained strength. Taking a cue from Taurus, at this full moon, slow down, and sink your body, mind and spirit into the pleasure and pace of terra firma. For instructive help, read on.
“My ambition is to have beautiful encounters, not to make money.” -Juliette Binoche, Venus in Taurus
“Life excites me- just little normal everyday things, getting out of bed, getting dressed, making food. I find it all exciting.” -Liv Tyler, Venus in Taurus
If you were born when Venus was in the constellation of Taurus, the Bull… Read more