You are incompletely disguised as a mortal
You are the eternal stranger I have always known -James Broughton
I need perfection
Some twisted selection
That tangles me
To keep me alive -Michael Hutchence
New Moon Leo, Wednesday, August 4, 2005 8:05 PM PST
Rock Star INXS seemed like a really bad idea-replacing the post-mortem lead singer of ‘suicide blonde’ with a new one? But Saturn’s entry into Leo says we need more rock stars. As the High Princes of Pop Materialism want you to keep sucking down unoriginal, one-hit wonder music with more glee than a 10 year old with an ICEE, at sugar high wipe-out, awaken the hunger for something life-sustaining. Rocker love: the virile, strong, luminescent force of raw life truth-to-self talent. When Mick Jagger’s luscious mouth ‘starts me up’, as Steve Tyler dances around with those tight little pants we respond to the whole package- voice, image, and sex appeal. A charisma that can’t be bought nor sold is the birthright of true talent-and it’s the birthright of your Sun sign. We revive lead singer Leo when the accruements we call identity reveal as a pale mannequin to the real deal. Recognize the feeling of being ‘on’- on fire, on purpose, is the soul knowing its own magnetism, the soul’s unobstructed power to shine.
Here we have a cast of leading ladies and men, all delicious and beautiful, with different strengths and weaknesses and the majority will go home ‘losing’. They perform, sometimes very well, sometimes badly, and the ones that perform badly get to perform again. Ah, the wheel of life. There seems to be several keys to success with the band: raw talent & charisma (you see ‘star quality’), ability to get along well with others (no upstaging or slighting anyone), generosity of spirit (giving the ‘good’ songs to those who are struggling), a physical strength (for the endless competition) and emotional/spiritual resiliency (to withstand Navarro’s leers). All of this being equal, what hangs the star: an ability to self-improve on weaknesses. This means not falling prey to Leonine pride of ‘I know what I’m doing, critics be damned’. To accept help when it is offered seems to make the weak, stronger and the strong more versatile.
For us everyday rock stars, living in the spotlight of ‘on purpose’ appears to come easier to some than others. Although most Leos we’ve known have an invisible spot following them wherever they go, none are exempt from every woman’s hero journey- which always involves slaying dragons and meeting the enemy. The enemy may be the glamorous ‘other’, who or whatever that other embodies, enticing us into believing what we have is certainly not as bright and shiny as that over there. The glamour whore doesn’t reflect our creativity, it parasitically feeds on it. When image is substituted for imagination, ‘head-in-the-stars’ deflates true star-power. Take Dave Navarro for example, the MC of Rock Star-he’s not a member of the band, so we pose the question: what is he doing on the panel of judges? Eye candy. Here is the glam-rock persona whose feather boa has really pulled one over on us. (Google him and the first website tagline you see: Dave Navarro is God) He says things like: ‘baby, you look so great I could just lick you’, and giving advice to a kittenish prospective M. Hutchence: ‘I think you’re great but they just want to hear more vulnerability in your voice’. Offensive. When one contestant says: ‘My sister sends her love’ Dave replies: ‘I’ll thank her when I talk to her tonight’. Blatantly offensive. When this land of plenty engages our self-poverty complexes ever more fiercely, we must consciously slay the dark forces of light diminishment, even in innocuous-looking succubus sex-oh-God please-don’t-open-your-mouth Daves of the world. This glamour whore drains authenticity and allure quicker than a tub of bathwater.
Aww, it’s okay, Dave. From Leo’s perspective, we are all children. Here we are in our innocence, playing with our ability to co-create-every time we up the ante on our creativity-o-meter, so too the Creator giggles with glee saying ‘Yes, yes, do it again!’. Isn’t it beautiful when this happens, that no matter how different our skill level or unique gift, when we perform an authentic creative act the universe sighs a deep diaphragm belly breath? Ever notice? Finally, someone’s noticed Her. If this feeling is a distant memory, now is the time to re-engage your inner artist with a spontaneous (or planned, a la Saturn) act of creativity. Follow your imagination to an event, class, book, action that re-enchants your world with magic and allure. This is a fantasy act on behalf of your future self-seed, not a phantasm. Neptune’s opposition can be the cosmic bait to transcending the small self so we can actually experience a connection to everything & everyone. But Neptune can as easily become an alluring forbidden fruit that robs us of our life energy in its elusive pursuit. Repeat after me: “To avoid phantasmagoric results, we will not be following a sub-longing or Id urge into a really bad decision”. Hold out for higher ground. Remember that every creation begins as a ‘what if’-and there’s no better time to give the universe some life support: deep, delicious belly breaths.
New Moon Day, 8/4: The measured easy life, prone to spinning out in fantasy and having experiences of being totally in tune. We have been space cadets and time travelers with Mercury opposed Neptune, warmed over. Drug abuse is exposed, people are thinking about recovery. Childhood memories come easy, also reminiscences of when times were better, the desire to escape is worth listening to. Romance is heightened, only softly distorted on the glass of hard reality. Mercury retrograde, the impulse to do new avoids later re-visit by taking on only projects already begun. The evening can start us in on a pattern of self-involved introspection, good ideas flow as the mind cranks through 8/5.
8/5-7 8/5 we linger over our opportunities and options, as new information and invitations flow. It’s good to explore; these ideas will change over time but what’s really buzzing is an upswing of potentiality. The most useful news is old news with a new twist so pay attention to the slight differences especially in the context of a scripted storyline. 8/6 If self-involvement is borderline myopic, take the fun energy of Sun sextile Jupiter to get outside your head. Take a trip, go anywhere to regions of the unknown and unknowable. Spirits are generous; generosity is infectious like a giggle that turns into a deep belly laugh. Moon in Virgo helps keep our heads in check as mindfulness becomes an art and a science; impressions come and go quickly these days and a little applied analysis at a key moment finds precious opportunity to mine the effervescence of tangential spin-outs. Ceres square Neptune has us longing for absolution from the great mother, or grandmother as it may be. Call her this weekend, in prayer or on the telephone. 8/7 Sleep may be erratic in the early morning hours. The haze of Neptune descends like a fog rolling through a sunny day. Is this heightened self-awareness or a purple haze that blurs our boundaries with others? Open to inspiration in the mundane. (See below*)Later this evening, nurture the urge to process material around relationships.
8/8-10 We may feel out of phase with head in the clouds one minute, wading through murky waters the next. People we’ve given authority to in our lives possess an enigmatic hold, becoming mirror-like, fire dancing on water. The dance may seem unreal, but by surrendered watching of the flicker and sway we learn about our role, our participation in this relationship. Used skillfully, transcendental meditation, spiritual practices and healing vibrations are accessible. 8/9 the dance gets eerie, entering as an event that takes a darker turn. We’ve been in a romance novel, capacity for heightened reverie & emotionalism colludes with the page turning plot, as the heroine of our story is pulled down into a place of pain or injury. Trust is hard & we’re suspicious of all who go there, even those who want to help. Signs of the times show abuses of women by the powers that be, monumental challenges to the feminine spirit. At the same time Pallas with Jupiter can apply reforming intelligence to any injustice. While tolls on relationship are experienced intensely, there’s opportunity to work it out with the higher mind- or the high courts.
8/11-12 Moon in Scorpio values emotional and physical exchange above all, so what’s come up is well nigh handled now. The strain of obligation or injury is felt late morning, and the evening shows the energy that won’t move- the stubborn Mars in Taurus who would rather sit on it than confront. First quarter energy impels getting to the root of the problem, if the foundation is fouled, the whole house stinks. It’s also a time we feel impelled to act, and encounter obstacles to doing so (which impels action). We have some internal power and resiliency right now, so ask Scorpio questions like: who or what is threatening my intimacy needs? Can this deep insecurity be handled differently?
8/13-14 Moon in Sagittarius, retrograde, slow moving Mercury squares stubborn Mars. Picture a normally staid professor who vents his anger by yelling in Indian on his drive home from work. ‘This is absolutely unacceptable-‘ he shouts in his white man with Indian accent shtick, disrobing the anger into the naked hilariousness of life, arriving home quietly relaxed ready for dinner with his wife. Then when provoked one morning in a silly dispute, he unconsciously (and disrespectfully) lapses into his Indian accent plus curse words. Double oops! Mental tension or anguish may reveal a sticking point we need to work through. It’s a point of contention that requires a little more flexibility than insistence. 8/14 today is one of those days to seek ingenious solutions; with a slight pressure a world of opportunity appears. Outspoken, vital and a little uninhibited, if there’s an opportunity to ‘do different’ we can run with it. Feel your strength and notice what sparks that awareness. See the Lust card of the tarot deck. http://www.angelpaths.com/majors/lust.html
8/15-16 Moon in Capricorn is always back to business, with an eternal Monday morning feel. Meanwhile Mercury, the mind, has reached a standstill. We don’t know what to think next, and by so knowing know we’re in the right place. 8/16 Early morning rushing about or excitement. This evening, Venus changes signs (thru 9/10) as our Virgoan health & habit conscious vanities move toward gratification in relating. No longer the Virgin sitting at the dressing table overly concerned with self-purification, we are now more aware of the urge to invite the other into the boudoir. Relationships become more active, like Venus in pursuit of her ideal, we are symbolic sculptors building our very own de Milo. What would the ideal other look like? What we give and receive is highlighted; imbalance is noted like a bill of sale, this is the price of compromise in relationship. How much do we share, what do we keep for self only? Venus in Libra claims to be all-giving and impartial; ideally she’s holding the scales for self and other so that no one ends up bankrupt. Preoccupation with appearances may point to a need to appreciate beauty beyond the mirror. Art, music, wine, culture- the patroness of pleasure needs these treats to feel appreciated! All this throughout the next month but before this she bids Virgo adieu with a healing trine to Chiron. Re-decorate a room, purify your environment, perform a ritual, do something lovely for your self and find healing in the action.
8/17 the planets of benevolence and mystical cosmic love drift into a slow languid harmony. This pair has really framed the moon cycle this month, backdrop energy. ‘I don’t know, it’s something good, can you feel it? I mean it just feels like everything’s going to turn out no matter how bad it looks-‘ Indefinable on one level, yet on another this pair has sprinkled our summer’s path with guardian angels. We are divinely cared for and know this is true on an intuitive level. Synchronicity and experiences of bliss, union sound less new-agey, they’re just ‘happening’. Moon in Aquarius this afternoon, kissing Venus makes this night a special one. Fatigue hits late night- go to bed before 11 PM so you don’t turn into a pumpkin.
*Rx for the Planets (they work so hard to bring you what you love)
Saturn wants a contract. http://www.dailyom.com/articles/2005/479.html
He’s not a troublemaker, a fear-monger or a karmic grim reaper. He just wants your signature on the record deal, your commitment to do what it takes. What would your rock star lifestyle look like? Cultivate the value in walking in your own light. Comparison of self to others, measuring self worth by net earning worth, measuring the value of our personal gold by anything other than to scale of knowing how far you’ve come on your personal journey is like buying the mass hallucination of capitalism on bad credit. Turn the propaganda into angel messages. The voice that says ‘you’ve come a long way baby’ is your soul knowing itself.
For Neptune: The Bliss Of With by James Broughton
You have come to me out of antiquities
We have loved one another for generations
We have loved one another for centuries
You teach me to trust the voice of my voices
You teach me to believe my own believings
You touch the palpability of my possibilities
Together we reflect what our mirrors conceal
Together we upgrade the sun in our meridians
We remain open night and day to transcendence
You are incompletely disguised as a mortal
You are the eternal stranger I have always known
I saw your wings this morning
I saw your wings this morning