Saturn In Scorpio: The Irresistible Pull of Transformation

by | Oct 4, 2012 | Saturn the Teacher, Scorpio | 9 comments

“..light’s blinding no way dividing what’s yours or mine when everything’s shining/Your darkness is shining, my darkness is shining, have faith in our selves…” Truth by Alexander

Want to do that life-changing thing you’ve been putting off for so long? Are you ready for transformation– and deathly afraid of it? Want a deeper relationship to your self, your body, the people you love -to life itself? They say to truly live, we’ve got to be willing to die; to claim our power we must look at what we reject, fear, call “bad” or “wrong” in our self. To befriend our wholeness in totality, we need to bring the darkness in our Self, to light. Welcome Saturn’s entry into Scorpio (10/5/12 -9/17/15, with 12/23/14-6/16/15 in Sagittarius).

The Irresistible Pull Of Transformation

Change and transformation – how to do it, what’s keeping us from achieving the transformation we soul desire, holds a special magnetism while Saturn transits Scorpio. Like reaching the promised final layer of an onion, many of us will want to address that thing holding us back from full-on transformation. Once we sing that battle cry for change, we will also likely instantly run into our own defenses and resistance to letting go into change.  As one women said to me recently, “I want to change – but on my own terms!” Of course Life will not oblige that request. We cannot give Life a list of our conditions and terms for our change and transformation any more than we can ask for a money back guarantee on a potentially rewarding/risky investment. During Saturn’s transit through Scorpio we may feel afraid to change, of death, loss, yet the pull of transformation is irresistible and related to our maturity. We need to clearly see death, change, loss, psychological awareness as apart of a leading a whole life. No more deceiving our self, or others -God of Karma, Saturn, won’t let us get away with it.  If Saturn in Libra left us with a legacy, it’s this: the full truth is far more satisfying than half-truths.

Forbidden Loves & Shadow Hungers

Forbidden love, obsession, cravings and hungers… things that go bump in the night.  Saturn in Scorpio, calling! Whether it’s the refrigerator calling us out from sleep, or the dark, gorgeous stranger lurking in the peripheral vision of our lives, there’s no denying the presence of shadowy figures. I counseled a young woman with Saturn in Scorpio who had developed a crush on someone outside of her marriage. The more she fixated on the object of her desire (and not the nature, flavor and texture of the desire itself), the less stable she felt –and the more she began to pull away from her marriage, and since she was devoted to her husband, this was a problem. As she began to withdraw from this Persephone-Pluto fantasy and instead investigate the source of her feelings, she discovered deeper truths in her self: mainly she needed to give value to her yearning to explore the dark, hungry side of her sexuality. Could the passion she wanted to feel be expressed through the intimate partnership with her husband? Exploring the dark side of her feminine sexuality, including the taboo, she experienced new sexual power.

For some, forbidden loves and sexual affairs will tempt, but as Saturn passes through Scorpio, for those who have been quick to sexually act, sexual restraint is appropriate – or else we invite the negative consequences of Saturn. Celibacy is a distinctly Saturn in Scorpio experience. Sexuality needs boundaries. These folks may be called to *not* act out our sexual drives and instead to mature our relationship to sexuality through the container of committed intimacy. Saturn implies hard work and denies fulfilment till the work is finished: while Saturn is in Scorpio, working on sexual relationship, with one’s own sexuality, is a vehicle for maturity and greater satisfaction.

Should I Be Whole Or Good?, Befriending Our Demons

I used to think people who spoke up for what they wanted were bossy control freaks. Those people who had their not so secret agenda and always made sure they got what they wanted first. Man, what a b****, right? Then I realized how great it would be to have that kind of power. I saw how the whole world revolved around them, and how in my own life, I was spending far too much time revolving around others. I wasn’t getting my own needs and desires met. I wanted to be calling the shots in my own life. To do that I’d have to be a bossy, controlling b****.

What we think is bad, in others or in our self, it truly never is. Punishing our self for our bad behaviour is not only punitive but short-sighted because when we really look at the motivation behind why we’re doing something, we can always find a positive one– something positive we’re trying to get from doing what it is we do.

One of the most difficult things to do in life is befriend our own darkness, misery, pain and suffering. We may know: I have a self-destructive or rebellious streak -or- I can see how right when I commit to being healthy by signing up at a gym, I go on an alcoholic junk food bender -or- I feel like a victim when (your words here). Knowing this about our self doesn’t change anything. It takes courage and self-compassion to be present during those painful moments as true transformation happens in the choices we make during our darkest hours.

Saturn in Scorpio can be hard, there’s no doubt about it. It can bring up demons, shadows and ghouls. Treat your Shadow, Saboteur, Demon as you might treat a friend, a powerful friend who you don’t totally understand –yet. I like what Marjory Mejia says about feeding your demons with kindness, here. I have a similar process in my book, A Love Alchemist’s Notebook. Invite your demons to tea by asking what, underneath all the weird behaviour, this thing most wants. Behind all the rage, the fears, helplessness, rebelliousness, depression – are positive motivations like: I want comfort. I want depth, care & nourishment. I want love. I’m only loving, only trying to only love… It was Carl Jung who said, “I’d rather be whole than good.” Enough said.

Our Deepest Fear

Is our deepest human fear public speaking? Some say so. Others say it’s death. I’ve noticed the Saturn in Scorpio buzz is particularly full of fear and foreboding this year. Saturn is the God of fear, of pan-ic (The God Pan, aka, Saturn). But Pluto, Scorpio’s ruler, is the God of Hidden Riches.  If we are psychological people who have a love for metaphysical truth, who have a healthy respect for the balance of dark and light in life (I would count astrologers as these people), it seems we would err on the side of wisdom and think Saturn could open our eyes in new ways.

Where Saturn transits your chart speaks to how you will experience this transit personally, but it will be flavoured by Scorpio. In Scorpio’s realm, Saturn’s riches are profound and substantial and involve an amount of fear, resistance and letting go. Fear, resistance is a call to investigate where and why we feel emotionally de-stabilized. If we are addicted,  obsessed, or reaching for sweets late at night maybe we are really hungry for: more, deeper, richer… In truth, what causes us to feel “out of control” may actually be a call to go within, to go deeper into our self, explore the hidden riches behind our craving, problem or desire—a process that includes looking at and then beyond our attachments. This involves deepening our intimacy with our Self, and often, with the people we love.

 What are you most afraid of?  Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? – Marianne Williamson

 

 

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9 Comments

  1. natasha9

    hi jessica.
    thank you for your insight. as i was reading, much of what you said resonated with me. but as someone with several planets in libra starting at 0 degrees and ending at 25 degrees, and then an ascendant at 14 degrees scorpio…ugh. i am extremely concerned. these last couple years have been horrifyingly difficult. the idea of more, with saturn continuing to transit my 12 house and then cross my ascendent and hover around for far too long in the first–i truly wonder if i will survive it. and then you mentioned celibacy! jesus, i hadn’t even thought about that! but it makes sense….although i truly hope that is not the manifestation saturn in scorpio takes in my life. i am single at the moment, and this state has never felt so poignantly uncomfortable!!!

  2. Jessica

    Hi Natasha, have you read my post on Saturn in the 12th? I doubt the shift from Libra into Scorpio will be any more difficult; its the 12th house transit that is hard. One of this best ways to help yourself through a 12th house transit is to do 12th house activities –dreamwork, inner and spiritual work, retreat, solitude, creative solitude, purifying health practices, reduce busy-ness in life, create more space. These have the effect of reducing the more difficult effects of the 12th house. On another note, Saturn in 12 needs to make peace with being alone/solitude. Since you are feeling uncomfortable about being single, this is the time to explore your alone-ness and find the healing and good in being alone & satisfying your self. I know its a confusing time! Many of us have survived, and made brand new when Saturn crossed over the ASC. My best, Jessica

  3. Gia

    Hi Jessica and Natasha, I thought I’d add to your discussion because I too have Scorpio rising at 20 degrees and I’m a little confused since the last two years have been SOOOO difficult especially in terms of my marriage. However, I had thought it was because my husband has Libra Rising at 16 degrees and has gone through a profound transformation of his own. So, I’m optimistic that Saturn in Scorpio will be a welcome change. Also, my husband and I both have a lot of planets in Cancer (as do our two children) which have been hit by the ongoing Uranus/Pluto square in addition to Saturn in Libra. So, I’m PRAYING the worst is over. It has been so painful and difficult.

  4. MIchele

    First I want to say I too have Scorpio Sun and ASC at 22 and 27 degrees. Saturn is transiting my 12th as well. I feel anxious, sad, blue, determined and then get dragged down again. Every time I try to move forward, I am blocked either externally or internally. How can one transform in this fashion? I do feel the need to create space and things keep getting in the way. It is more frustrating and draining than frightening in anyway. I do understand what you are guiding us to do…and won’t give up. Just feels like a fight right now.

    Second I want to say I love the video you posted Jessica. Wow…that is SO Scorpio. Is Alexander one? Just curious.

  5. Jessica

    Hi Michele, Everything you, Natasha, and Gia are saying applies to the 12th house transit. I (longwindedly) responded to Natasha but don’t want to continue the 12th house conversation here because it is off topic. Perhaps you can repost your question in the 12th house blog? Thanks for reading 🙂 – and I’m not sure about Alexander’s sign, but this video gives me good spine quivering Scorpio chills!

  6. Emilia Rosa

    I, a scorpio with saggitarius rising, am chock full of my own darkness. there is a rising compassion in me towards my “demon” or “dark friend” that interests me since it’s so unfamiliar that i would not turn in fear from this difficult person/being.
    so thank you for writing, clarifying what it is that is so heavy among us right now… the God of Karma… i’m excited and empowered.
    thank you many times my friend.
    revelations about manifesting change? embrace embrace embrace no?

  7. Anica

    Dear Jessica,
    thank you so much for this, for reassurance and understanding and whole picture. We are whole when we understand our dark side and understand other people have it too. Then we can all live in peace and accept pain and suffering of the world and our own and live with it and cure it. For me, I have ASC, Sun, Moon, Uranus in Sco, Saturn meant and means a lot of truth about myself and the world – just obvious. My Sun is in 12th house and Saturn helped me on something I wanted to do whole my life, it was just that I had no light outside to light it and my internal flickering flame was weakened by fears and inhibitions – now I can see all aspects of myself and really Shine. thank you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6-2TlkxC44

  8. Raj

    what an insight.. while browsing through the article, i felt like the exact replica of what i experienced to date. Approximately, couple of years has elapsed since saturn in scorpionic realm. first, my girl has broken the perpetrated love relationship (since 2006), though her mother granted me as her son-in-law. but my gf seemed to share very cold shoulder till now. is this the influence of celibacy? as far i know, i have natal saturn, mars and pluto in scorpio and sun in aries. Kindly note, i am under first saturn return influence in scorpio.

    second, in the recent past for the first time ever in my life, i could sense an emerging passion for illicit sexual relationship with a married woman. but, after reading your article, i made up my mind to make a stringent norms for sexual relationship confinements.

    Jessica, seeking your kind glance and advice about how to work herein to bring back and have a stable love relationship with the lady of my heart till Sep 17, 2015

  9. KIM R REALUBIT

    Scorpio women tend to be drawn to forbidden love or secret affairs because of the thrill and excitement that go along with the journey. Traditional relationships bore us because there is no challenge or intellectual fulfillment. But what is dark and dangerous-herein lies the mystery of life. So we want to delve deeper and dig further until we satisfy our thirst for the unknown. It is because of these hyperventilating adventures that makes Scorpios alive-that drive us to produce the greatest novels of all time, the greatest drama and poetry, the unforgettable paintings and the best selling songs…

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