Scorpio Full Moon: Dig Deeper

by | May 19, 2019 | Illuminated Lunations, Scorpio | 10 comments

Things aren’t always what they seem. People aren’t always who they appear to be.

It doesn’t take a Scorpio Full Moon to realize, but there’s something about this particularly dramatic and emotionally intense Moon that brings the invisible, what is unconscious or lives in darkness, into the light.

We’d talked before, and she seemed nice enough, but as I was making polite conversation I could feel my face tighten up, my smile become forced, the “mask” of my social persona very distinctly. I also felt suffocated. I felt like I might not be able to breathe very soon. I wanted to run. Now. Fast. I couldn’t get away from her fast enough.

All of it was intuitive information.

What was happening? I raced home as soon as I was able. When I laid down and went inside myself I knew I was having a strong reaction to her energy. It was beyond needy. Engulfing. Suffocating. False. What my physical senses registered, a friendly, nice person who wanted to be my friend, was incongruent with what my energy body felt. AWFUL.

Even though I knew this, I felt guilty for wanting to run away.  She seemed soooo nice. Yet lots of people “seem nice” and aren’t. This was Beautiful Evil Queen energy. Let me be your friend, let me show you how wonderful I can be to you, and then I will drain your life force so that I can live. Have a sweet red apple, dear…Oh, are you feeling sleepy?

It was bad. How do I know it was that bad? I felt that bad.

In the presence of that kind of energy, who wouldn’t want to run as fast as they can? Yet I couldn’t shake this incongruence between who she appeared to be, which manifested in a bout of severe nausea, reflecting the cognitive dissonance between what I saw and what I felt. I am in a phase of deep learning, learning to trust what I feel -the energy- above all else. And what I was feeling was very real, more real than what my five senses told me.

I don’t believe in evil. I do, however, know that what feels inherently false and self-serving feels pretty evil on an energetic level. We can’t avoid these kind of interactions, and the fact that we do certainly does not reflect our level of enlightenment. This is a diverse world. There are wounded people with strange motives who wear masks so they can function. We all have social masks that are quite different from who we are. We create them to survive childhood  (in astrology, those social mask of our outward personality is described by the Ascendant). When the mask of personality is so different from the reality…  it can be incredibly confusing. When who a person appears to be isn’t at all who they are.

Which makes learning to trust not what we see but what we feel an invaluable intuitive practice.

Scorpio Full Moon Intuitive Energy Practice: Dig Deeper

It is Scorpio Full Moon time, time for you to dig a little deeper. To look beyond what your five physical senses tell you, and pay closer attention to what your psychic senses are saying. I was receiving extrasensory information, its purpose was to protect me.  It helped me to recognize a psychic boundary. Had I not listened to the energy, I might’ve been lured into a black widow’s web. I’ve experienced those kind of relationships before – not fun.

Here’s the practice: Take a moment this week, when you are interacting with someone – especially if you have a strong feeling reaction to them – to observe on a deeper level. What are you feeling? After the interaction, how did/do you feel?

Take some time to interpret the information using your intuition. Try to refrain from interpreting that what you’re feeling as about you. The temptation, almost always, is to judge our self for what we feel, or think “it must be me” instead of reading the energy. Then we miss the opportunity to honor the intuitive information we are receiving.

Ask yourself: what information am I receiving about this situation or person that may not be obvious, or different from what’s being shown me?

You may notice an image or thought arise out of the blue. Or a sensation, desire, feeling or energy arise. It won’t come from your head– so get out of your head when you do this. This is psychic information.

This goes WAYYY beyond reading another’s body language, facial expressions or the words they are using- all of which can be unreliable and false – and instead asks you to rely on what you feel.

Why is this helpful? Your feelings are your truth-meter. They are an excellent form of Divine Guidance.

People say things all the time that may not feel true to you, because they aren’t. People wear expressions that are subject to misinterpretation. Angry can look like a lot like sad, for instance. Someone being and looking “too tired” can actually be avoidance, or anger. Distraction is a modern condition many people are afflicted with…but no matter how good others can get at multi-tasking while looking like they’re paying attention, when you are present and connected, it is easy to pick up on other’s distraction, which can feel like avoidance or disconnection.

For instance, when talking to my husband and he says “I’m listening,” and even looks like it (!), I can tell when he’s not.

You want to teach yourself to read the Truth, as only you can see it, with a capital T.

Get good at trusting what you intuitively receive, over what you are being told by another, or can see with your eyes. Get really good at this and you will have an intuitive superpower that will reliably protect and guide you!

 

 

 

 

 

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10 Comments

  1. Don

    Dear Jessica,

    I admire and appreciate the way you are so well attuned to the Energy of each period/lunation, as reflected in your writings. They are really helpful and valuable for me in order to be able to verify, realise, pin down, what I am really feeling, especially in these challenging times that we are living.

    Needless to say, feeling the “strange” Energy of some people and deciding what to do about it has been a theme of late for me too. “Let me be your friend, let me show you how wonderful I can be to you, and then I will drain your life force so that I can live.” How amazingly accurate, word for Word!

    But it’s not an easy task for me, to keep clear of those people, mostly because I had so many of them around me and now it feels kind of lonely to keep a distance from them. This, of course, says a lot about me, too. And my evolution as a person. I am taking responsibility for my connections, and disconnections…

    Thank you so much, once again. I send you my warmest wishes.

    Kind regards,

    Don

  2. Erin

    All true. Excellent post.

  3. Kirsten

    Thank you. Good advice. Sense and use wisely. Scorpio energy is very powerful and confusing to me. Mostly ending in disappointment and feeling of sadness for them, stuck in this mire.

  4. Cinthia

    Oh my Goddess! Thank You! I thought it Was Only Me!!!! For the Longest Time, I thought It Was Me.
    I have struggled for Years with , ” Is This Me?”, going through huge internal examination and angst, only to find out ( interestingly, a couple of them took 2 years! before I figure it out) later , No, it’s not me! It is actually them!
    Gee ~ sometimes it took me a good long while, and the incredible thing is ~ these others ~ ~ ~ Always act/behaved as if they were my very own good friends, Sister Friends, but underneath it all ~ ah ~ not so. Not in the interest of my well being at all. These are the ones I really struggled with as I did have relationship/connection with them. I no longer Ever involve myself that way ~ tho many try.
    When I have to involve myself with others I meet them on neutral ground as an acquaintance. I can just pick up and go whenever I desire want to. I don’t invite others in no more. Tho, happily , because of the internet ~ I may still communicate with others on Spiritual Global Matters of Healing, Sacred Beauty, Sacred Dreaming Etc., Big Magick . (see : my blathering)
    The ones that just give off that really weird ‘strange vibe’ I have no connection with ~ tho they may want it, I veered completely away from. Am not available to.

    Being a Pisces with a Cancer Moon, (sometimes Gemini Moon depending on which version) I am very sensitive to energies, I have since very early childhood just feel at times like a big old Mirror . The only thing is, I do not have the understanding, recognition, knowledge to interpret these this mirroring that touches all. Differently, but with the same type of energies. It is very big.
    As a younger person I always thought wondered why am I suddenly feeling this , Until I discovered Oh! it’s this person next to me, or the energies in this room, etc. or this city, place, right here , etc.
    But for the longest time, when dealing with others I completely took it inside myself ~ asking Is This Me? WTH is going on? What? Why? Complete angst (as young people do)…. Thank Goddess I am Blessed, allowed my own Sanctuary for my Being.
    Thank You for Allowing me to know, I am not the only one!
    Thank You! Thank You. Thank You.

  5. karen

    i feel like a bit of a ‘thud’ when it comes to my intuition/psychic awareness, yet have known others who use their spidey senses. i wonder if it’s a matter of trust? familiarity? habit? i’m inspired to slow myself and pay closer attention, taking the time to tune in, to ask myself questions…

    i particularly love this…”Get good at trusting what you intuitively receive, over what you are being told by another, or can see with your eyes. Get really good at this and you will have an intuitive superpower that will reliably protect and guide you!” Thank you !!!!

  6. HF

    I always enjoy getting the email that you’ve posted something and its always spot on. This one arrived right on the dot of me meeting with two people of the type you talk about. I did have an “is it me or…?” moment! Thank you, love reading these thought provoking and insightful posts.

  7. Jessica

    Karen, Why do some people have more developed psychic senses than others? In my experience, it is all you named and more…we are not taught to trust what we feel and know. As my other reader/commenter wrote, many of us are conditioned to believe there is something wrong with us. Feelings, intuition and “extra” sensory perceptions are largely rejected by culture and family upbringing. As many know, it’s hard to own a strength/gift that we have been taught to perceive as a liability or weakness — and given no information on developing.

    Intuition is always here though, guiding us, whether we are aware or not. It’s more fun to be aware, for sure.

    I am in the process of developing a course on this exact topic 🙂 I don’t know when it will be ready. That will involve some Divine Orchestration. But my readers will be the first to know. ~Jessica

  8. Maria

    Oooh I had a Venus in Scorp, Libra Sun approach me and say

    ” I want to be your friend and I want you to be my spiritual mentor.”

    The experience was spooky but flattering! Almost didn’t trust that I always have to clear cobwebby things off me after being in a class with this lady. Rang her, spoke up and said ” Sorry this is not right for me.” Whew!

  9. Cinthia

    oops! hehe
    Not that it much matters, but I am a Pisces with a Cancer Rising , not Moon ~ as I said above.

    Thanks again ~ your words helped me so much.
    Blessings, Bright Blessings

  10. juli

    Thanks for this article. I stumbled upon it accidentally, yet it’s the best I’ve read today 🙂
    It’s totally true and a relief to read someone else describe how I feel on a daily basis. I’m a full moon scorpio in the 8th house conjunct Pluto. Double whammy all the way and it’s been a bumpy ride (still is at times) to learn and manage to truly listen to what my intuition and feelings tell me. Cause maaannn do people give off other vibes than what they outwardly express. It’s very frustrating feeling all of this when half the time I can’t do anything with it, cause the other person isn’t ready to face it themselves. Like eg. my partner who is saying he’s “all right everything is fine” yet I clearly feel otherwise and know from experience that if I confront him, he gets annoyed cause he isn’t ready to face what’s inside him, yet if I don’t, then because try to leave him be and not disturb the process he’s in with whatever issue he’s having, he projects my silence or presence and something being off about me. It’s a catch 22. I’ve noticed that I get a better outcome when I can manage to stop all judgement and opinion inside around them being blind to their own issues, and then it’s as if I give off a more gentle vibe that isn’t intimidating them into facing what they are processing or avoiding…
    This article confirms that it isn’t all in my head and I’m imagining and making stories about the sometimes weird feelings I get about people or places.
    I had same experience with a family friend who stayed in our house a little too long. I could feel him even when he was on the other side of the house, felt suffocated and like in a prison. Back then I didn’t understand why I got these feelings, felt bad because he was so nice. But asked my father to make him leave and felt instant relief even though also guilty, cause he needed our financial support. Today it’s obvious that for me this person was an energy vampire, why, I have no idea. Thanks again !

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