Scorpio Is Forgiveness Season- Or Is It?

by | Nov 9, 2017 | Scorpio | 5 comments

It’s painful to lose a true friend of the Soul. Most of us would choose not to ever lose them. It would be nice if those relationships went on forever, forever inspiring, raising us to be and see our highest, brightest self. But often they don’t, and since it felt so wonderful to be in their presence, it leaves us wondering- what happened? Or worse, What did I do wrong?

Closure is something humans reach for and usually don’t get in the way we want. People may ghost us, disappear entirely, over an interaction we consider minor, or at least resolvable, and the fact that it led to this baffles us. We go over and over this in our head, wondering why, why? The injury revisits us in vulnerable moments. The heart doesn’t have a timeline for loss or grief.

I went into meditation recently over the loss of a friend, many years ago. It has always troubled me how it ended. One day this person just disappeared. Poof. Our friendship for many years, evaporated, and all ties were cut, all lines of connection. When I’d reach out, as I did recently in a nostalgic moment of vulnerability and longing for a true friend relationship (we all have those, don’t we?), it became clear to me that he did not want to be contacted by me. I could feel that he felt betrayed; I could feel the sting of his perception of my betrayal. This wasn’t new to me. Though it still bothered me that, in his mind, I was the source of an injury, which he kept blocking me from healing, correcting.

When I inquired into this, my True Divine Self said that it was his Soul’s path to experience betrayal (I recalled his Venus in Scorpio). But wait, I thought, this was one of the most enlightened souls I’ve met! He happened to be one of the greatest healers I’ve ever known. Then, a list of spiritual teachers were recited — people who were great healers and teachers, who made very human, sometimes awful, mistakes. Everyone has an Ego, a human experience. We all can have soul missions that look very different from our external, worldly role.

Then, I received guidance. “He may or may not still hold feelings about this but you have a choice as to whether to continue to participate. All you have to do is declare that you no longer want to play this part. Embody the light and love you are, that’s all. You were never anything other than light to one another, anyhow. You know this.”

Then a profound wave of love flowed over and through me. Now, there was nowhere for his projections to land. I was and am pure love. I thought of the nursery rhyme “I’m rubber and you’re glue, whatever you say bounces off of me and sticks to you.” Crap can’t stick to you when you own who you truly are (crap only sticks to you when it has a place to land –a niggling self-doubt, shame, questions about your worthiness, etc. But we can change that, too).

That’s the power of free will. Things happen in life that we may not be able to control, fated events where we literally play our part, or role, in another’s healing journey. They can attach all kinds of drama to it (and we can react with our own, if we choose, and keep that karmic wheel turning). We always have the free will to say: “I love myself enough to not continue this.”

Personally, I’d prefer to “opt out” of the wheel of suffering. There are plenty of opportunities to perpetuate pain in the world. Like a piece of junk mail or spam that you don’t recall ever signing up for, it’s all too easy get roped into another’s painful story without your permission, and keep it going by adding your pain to it, thus creating more suffering. Just opt out.

I now understood that the real pain in my heart was not that of missing him, but the pain of believing I’d never feel so fully met, understood, seen, believed in, fulfilled again. I knew I was reaching for this old energy because I’ve been experiencing a series of unfulfilling connections. But this feeling my Soul wants to experience again was created by the resonance we once shared – it was not bequeathed by him personally. Nor was this able to be taken from me.

I may (still) love him, but I love myself more. To me, loving myself more means not reaching out, longing, for a sticky energy that is clearly not “for me”. I love myself enough to not give my light to people who cannot receive it.

If it feels bad, I opt out.

In this Scorpio season, we can easily feel haunted by old betrayals, grief, hurts and wounds. To feel something has been taken away, denied or destroyed creates pain for the Soul– because we know this is simply not true (ever!). No one can take what is ours.

So much of the time, in hurts of the heart, we believe we need to forgive another to move on. Or get to a place where we are so healed that another’s actions don’t affect us. Well that could take… forever.

All we really need is to own our innocence in the drama. When we own our light, forgiveness is unnecessary. We recline back into the easy knowing that we are only light and love. And so are they (even if they have temporarily forgotten). Truly, we deserve to only be with those who expand, uplift, delight and enhance us. And we can love our self enough to act on that knowing.

…for more on love and letting go, read my book Karmic Dates and Momentary Mates: The Astrology of the Fifth House


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  1. Deb

    Beautifully said, thank you Jessica.

  2. Madame Mermaid

    As a person who has given crap plenty of places to land, who has spent years longing desperately for things and people that are not “for me”, actually chasing them down to give them my unwanted light, I can’t thank you enough for writing this article. Thank you for being willing to expose your own pain, and the path forward to healing.

  3. Aries rising

    Thanks Jess all makes sense, fantastic read.

  4. Philip

    Hi Jess, I empathise with your experience, and in my case, it is she who has Venus in Scorpio. I just wanted to thank her for a spritual blessing that she led me to, but human life got in the way ! I guess we will have to wait until we get back to heaven to have that conversation. Perhaps we already did as much as we had planned for this lifetime, and any more would have broken our agreement ?

  5. Judith

    Love this, Jessica. A recent experience with the ending of a (toxic) friendship my guidance said this would have to be grieved which felt impossible. One day after having been angry forever, I felt the tiny nudgings of depression and sadness…pushed away. Sat down and allowed that sadness to take over into a well of grieving. Staying with it completely allowed me to navigate all the way to the gift of release. Your thoughts awakened me to the fact it is well behind me now.

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